I've finally come to realized I really need to change my lifestyle. Partying once a week on the weekends has given me the reputation of a party girl and I don't want that. And when I meet guys, they see me as a party girl and think that they can treat me like one. Treat me like I'm disposable. Call me only when there's a party. I was like the party hub. I always knew where all the parties were at and would take these guys to these various parties and never see them again until there was another party to bring them to.
I'm a good girl but by looking at my pictures, no one can tell that I am one. And I am ready to settle down with one guy. Casual dating is kind of getting old now. I'll probably still date multiple guys, but this time sorting through them to find THE ONE. Go out with them and do other things then drink and party. I want to be able to go out with a guy to dinner and a movie. You know, like old fashion dating. I'm an old fashion girl might as well date like one.
I believe that if I can settle down myself, I will find that one person that I can settle down with too. I believe God is telling me that since I'm partying so much, I'm not ready to be in a relationship because partying might take priority over my boyfriend. I remember when I was dating R, I would pick a party over him. And I don't want a guy to feel like he's second best to my social life.
Another thing is that the party scene is getting old. One night of partying requires me about two days to recover. When I drink, my insomnia kicks in and I tend to only get about 3-4 hours of sleep. So the next night I have to sleep early just to catch up on sleep. Then the rest of the week, I'm exhausted at work.
The past two and a half months have been great. I've made great friends and was able to finally let loose. I appreciate my parents for being patient with me in my partying stage. Now, I would much rather go to the movies, go bowling, go out to dinner, or have a night in with some friends. Let's have a board game night or have karaoke contests. Less drinking though. 2 months of drinking takes a toll on a girl's body. It's time to hang the party shoes indefinately.
