2 Weeks

Two more weeks to go til I'm off to Mexico. I have so many things to take care of and yet I'm procrastinating. I have to find some clothes to wear to the cruise. I have to buy some stuff to take with me. And I have to clean my room since the weekend I get back, my family will be staying at my house for the weekend. I enjoy having my family visit me but not when they stay at my house because they come in pacts of 15. So imagine about 20 people in one house with just two bathrooms. I have to stay in my parents' room and I have to lock up everything in my room. A few years ago, I found out my cousin was a kleptomaniac and likes to also destroy people's property. She cut a hole in my leather chair and she stole my diamond earrings. I couldn't prove it was her but who else would do it? My sister said she was the only one in my room while everyone was downstairs. So from now on, I carefully watch her. I remember when I was in California staying at her house, I saw that my contacts were ripped in half! At first I thought I accidentally ripped them the night before but whenever I rip my contacts they don't rip in half. So the next two weeks will be stressful but it will be all worth it. Relaxing on the cruise with some good friends.

Today Will Never Be the Same

Today has always been a unique day. Today is my aunt's and my two cousins' birthday. But it will never be the same anymore because today is PJ's birthday. He would have been 25 years old. I remember last year today I was in California with my cousin Christene celebrating her birthday with my cousins and we called PJ to greet him happy birthday. He has always been the light of the party in our family. But even though he's gone, he still makes us laugh. We talk about him all the time as if he's still with us. He was the greatest person I've ever met. Happy birthday PJ and I love you!

Kinda Bitter

Ever since my close friends turned down my birthday cruise, I've never felt more rejected in my life. I understand that they can't go because of money reasons but they didn't have to tell me they are going and then last minute tell me they can't afford it. I gave everyone 2 months to raise 300 dollars. I'd think that you would know by then if you can afford it or not. I was really excited that they were going to come along with me and then getting my hopes up makes me feel want to distant myself from them. This Saturday is Kathrina's late graduation party. I'm proud she finally graduated but I kinda feel bitter towards her for telling me she'd go on the cruise until the day before we were buying the tickets to tell me she can't afford it. It sounds childish to say that I won't go to her party since she isn't going to mine but that's what I feel like right now. I feel like I don't want to associate with my friends right now even though two of my friends are still going with me. It's all about the principle of sticking to your word and being responsible enough to just say no ahead of time. I graciously told her that I might not make it because I have some stuff to do this weekend which is true. It's PJ's and Christene's birthday tomorrow and Christene will be in town this weekend. And in honor of PJ's memory, I'd rather spend this time with my family.

One Month to Go

It's crazy to think that another year has past. Time does fly when you are older. And growing up is really hard to do. I've experienced so many things in a year, both good and bad. So this year I'll be turning the big TWO-FOUR. I'm tired of the same old way of celebrating my birthday. All we do is go clubbing for birthdays. So this year, I've decided to change it up a bit. I've decided not to celebrate my birthday in Las Vegas. I'm going on a cruise to Mexico with a couple of friends. Through this trip, I've come to learn that some people are not as reliable as they seemed. I wanted to celebrate my birthday with a few close girlfriends. I trust these girls with my life. I gave everyone two months to decided if they can come or not. Everyone seemed very interested and excited which got me excited. Well it's a month before my birthday and everyone bailed out on me. Everyone except for two friends. One is a friend whom I only see on special occasions and the other is one I've met only once. I'm not complaining because they are awesome, but I wish that people would tell me straight up they couldn't afford it or they can't go because of work. It's hurtful getting me excited by telling me they'll go on the trip and bailing out last minute. But you know what, it'll be a blast. They will just miss out. Everyone is saying that their are sorry and are saying they'll make it up to me. Honestly, I don't want their pitty for not making it. And I'm not about to do another celebration when I get back so they can "make it up". I sometimes want to just not go to their birthdays just to show how hurtful I feel for them backing out last minute. But I'm never one to be that spiteful. So here is to year the 24.