Kinda Bitter

Ever since my close friends turned down my birthday cruise, I've never felt more rejected in my life. I understand that they can't go because of money reasons but they didn't have to tell me they are going and then last minute tell me they can't afford it. I gave everyone 2 months to raise 300 dollars. I'd think that you would know by then if you can afford it or not. I was really excited that they were going to come along with me and then getting my hopes up makes me feel want to distant myself from them. This Saturday is Kathrina's late graduation party. I'm proud she finally graduated but I kinda feel bitter towards her for telling me she'd go on the cruise until the day before we were buying the tickets to tell me she can't afford it. It sounds childish to say that I won't go to her party since she isn't going to mine but that's what I feel like right now. I feel like I don't want to associate with my friends right now even though two of my friends are still going with me. It's all about the principle of sticking to your word and being responsible enough to just say no ahead of time. I graciously told her that I might not make it because I have some stuff to do this weekend which is true. It's PJ's and Christene's birthday tomorrow and Christene will be in town this weekend. And in honor of PJ's memory, I'd rather spend this time with my family.