Stressed!

Why is it that when your boss is in the office, everything runs smoothly, and the first day he goes on vacation, EVERYTHING goes wrong? Sucks being the engineer, because everyone turns to you thinking you know everything. My game is 3 days late and I am STRESSED! And when I'm stressed out, I cannot eat or sleep and I become emotional. I was talking to a friend of mine through gmail and I started tearing up. Good thing he couldn't see me falling apart. I did some yoga yesterday and it helped relieve the stress I've been feeling. And it sucks that when I stress over one thing, I start to reevaluate other things not working in my life and stress over that too. I started contemplating about my relationship with Jason and that got me stressed. Him not having a job is worrying me which it shouldn't, but I care about him and I worry about him making it through the month. I felt relieved when my boss emailed me this morning saying that it's okay to release the game as is and we'll figure out how to fix it on the next pass. I feel bad emailing him during his much needed vacation but this game is really important. It's the first of its kind and everyone is waiting for it. Lots of burden on my shoulders huh? I need a drink. So much for giving up alcohol for Lent. Although I haven't really drank that much since Jason and I started dating. So for now, I'm not giving up anything for Lent.

It's in the Cards

So Valentine's day has come and gone. Jason and I just ended up having dinner and then walked around at Bellagio to take some pictures. Deep down inside, I wish he made a big deal out of Valentine's day but I'm also glad he didn't because he just can't afford anything right now. The current condition of the economy is greatly affecting him. He is down to working just 4 hours a week! I'm trying to be an understanding girlfriend by trying not to get him to spend money when we are together. After taking pictures on the strip, we end up at his house to exchange gifts. I told him to open his card first and he took one look at the envelope and said we gave each other the same card. I didn't think so at first cuz there are many "RED" envelopes at Hallmark. But when he opened it, he said we did give each other the same card. What are the odds? Guess we both think alike. I got him a book that he's been wanting for awhile and he absolutely loved it. Just seeing his face light up made my night. It was an eventful evening and I'm glad I was able to celebrate it with Jason.

No Need to Wish Anymore

So I couldn't wait til Valentine's Day to seal the deal with Jason. Since he and I have been dating, a lot of my friends have been asking when we're going to sleep together and I've been putting it off mainly because I don't want him to think I'm too easy. On Friday, after hanging out with the girls, I went to Jason's house with the purpose of just sleeping over. By the time I got to his house, I was irritated with him because he gave me wrong directions so I just wanted to go to sleep since it was late already. By the time we were in bed, all my irritation towards him went away. Jason and I ended up fooling around for a couple of hours before sleeping. Well he went to bed and I just laid there because I always have a hard time sleeping when I'm not in my own bed. Jason was able to sleep for an hour and he wanted to fool around again. That's when I finally gave in to his request. We did the deed really quick. He didn't mean for it to be that fast, but I guess fooling around for hours on end made him too excited. Exhaustion kicked in but I couldn't sleep. He had work the next day so I told him I should leave. He didn't want me to, but I insisted because I wanted to sleep and I couldn't sleep in his house. On the way home, I saw the most amazing thing. I saw a shooting star for the very first time. It made me wonder if it's a sign that maybe things are looking up for me. Maybe I did make the right choice with Jason. All I know is that I'm really happy and that's all that matters. The shooting star just made it more special and I didn't even have to wish for it.