Lately I've been showing signs of a clingy girlfriend and I hate it. I don't know what's wrong with me, but I've been wanting to be with Jason all the time. I tried avoiding this by not getting too close to him too fast, but when I like someone, I fall fast and hard. I hate that feeling because it usually ends with me getting hurt. And nobody wants to get hurt right? And I need to also stop acting like a brat when I don't get my way.
Last Tuesday, I asked him to come to the movies with me because I missed him a lot. He was going to be on my side of town anyways. And he said he couldn't, cuz since he missed lunch with his dad, he had to see his dad on Wednesday. But I kept bugging him and he said he'll try. Wednesday, he didn't say yes or no to me, so after work I called him and said don't even bother coming to the movies with me. My friend will just go with me instead. My friend is a guy. He sounded a little disappointed and I told him to call me after the gym since he was with his friend getting his car. He called me 20 minutes later after he got his car to tell me he misses me and was being all lovey dovey. It made me feel better that he admited he missed me but I also felt bad for going to the movies with another guy. The whole time I was in the movies, I kept thinking of him.
Last night I asked if he wanted to go to a lounge with me for my friend's birthday and he said no. I kept bugging him to come because my friends want to meet him. So today, I texted him saying I was sorry for trying to pressure him into going to the lounge with me especially since he got mad at his friend for doing the same thing when he's tight on money. He said he's not mad but I think he was a little annoyed that I keep trying to get him to do stuff when he's really broke. But then he invited me to his friend's birthday party which I felt like I invited myself to. But he reassured me he wants me to come. I need to start going out with friends so I won't suffocate Jason. Cuz I feel like I am and I really am not like this. lol.
3.07.2009
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