Camp Amigo

One more day until I go on vacation. I shouldn't really say vacation since we're going camping for 5 days. It doesn't seem like it'll be too relaxing. According to my aunt, there will be about 60 of us. I doubt there will be 60 since I heard some people are backing out now. But I'm pretty sure there'll be around 40 of us. 40 Amigos in one camp site equals no relaxation. It'll be so hectic I'm sure of it. And the sucky part is. I'm still waiting for my period. With my luck, I'll get it on Wednesday, the first day of camping. At least we got an RV so I can sleep somewhat comfortably with Aunt Flo's visit. Can't wait to ruin my diet and stuff my face with lots of food! I just made lots of cookies and about 5 of them went in my mouth. Baking is never good for me. I will eat it too much. But one thing I learned with this batch. Butter burns fast! VERY FAST. And it will overflow the pan at any moment. My mom got so mad at me when the butter spilled all over the stove. But that's what baking is all about. It's a learning experience.

Gone Too Soon

I was watching Michael Jackson's memorial all day today at work. I just couldn't keep my eyes away. I wished they had commercials because I did miss a few performances. What I did get to see was his daughter Paris express how Michael was a great father and that she loves him. Just watching her cry as she spoke did it for me. I was tearing up at work and had to take a moment to come back to reality. It's crazy how much impact he had on people. I didn't realize that of all the people in the industry, he gave the most to charity. It's a shame that people never saw the good in him when he was alive when he needed everyone the most. He did have a memorial fit for a king and that's how it should be.

She Loves Me

I have the bestest friend ever. Last night was my friend Abbie's birthday. After drinking and dancing the night away. We felt we were getting old because we were tired at 2am so we decided to start up our end of the night tradition of clubbing. We ate steak and eggs at Terrible's Casino. We all drove our own cars and while I was talking to Ann on the phone at a stop light, I got freaked out and screamed when someone started knocking at my window. After focusing on who it was, I was relieved it was Jill. She put her car on park behind me while waiting for the light and ran to my car to give me water. She said "I thought you'd be thirsty even though we're minutes away from getting food." She knows I'm always thirsty and thought she'd bring me some water in the street. Even though her feet was hurting, she took the time to run to my car and give me water. Isn't that awesome?? She's the greatest and I love her.

He's A Legend

How many people can stop everyone around the world in their tracks when they die unexpectedly? Only Michael Jackson could do that. Well in my lifetime anyways. He even overshadowed Farrah Fawcett's death when she died a few hours before him. Every time I see articles of him online or watch his concerts my heart aches. I can't believe he's gone. He was such a talented artist. It just sucks that he had to die for people to acknowledge how much he has impacted the entertainment industry. I've been listening to his songs since his death and I love how his music is timeless. Even though some of his songs were made like over 20 years ago, you'd still be able to listen to it and not realize how old they are. My parents are watching the Jackson 5 reunion concert and it's hard to watch it. I noticed he said 'I Love You' after every song. The way he kept saying it, you could tell he was really innocent. I just hope that there won't be a huge custody battle for his kids because of money. I hope that they grant his wish in his will and let his mother raise his kids. They already went through enough.

New York Here I Come!

I'm super excited! I booked my flight tickets and hotel for my birthday trip to New York. I'm leaving September 1st and coming back September 5th. 5 days and 4 nights for less than 600 bucks in Manhattan. That's a freaking steal! I still wish I went to the Bahamas but I've always wanted to go to New York so I'm still excited. I'm watching Cash Cab right now and I secretly hope I get into a cab with this guy. It looks so fun! I'm going to NYC with Rei and May. I don't know May that well but I'm sure it'll be fun either way. When I went to Mexico with Aprille and Julia, we weren't close friends. But after the trip, we all became great friends and travel buddies. I have so many places I want to see and do, so hopefully I get to see and do them. So for 2 months, I'll just have to look at this picture and wait to take my own. And it'll go by really fast since I'll be really busy at work doing over time. I have a September 1st deadline. So once I submit my game, I'm gone. I told my boss that if anything goes wrong, I'll be on vacation.

Double Shocker

Wow! I can't believe it. Both Farrah Fawcett and Michael Jackson died today. It was sad to hear Farrah lost her battle with cancer this morning, but to hear Michael Jackson died later in the afternoon. That was quite a shocker! I'm actually really sad to hear such a great performer dying so young. Everyone at worked actually stopped cuz everyone was shocked. We were all visiting each other's cube to just talk about Michael Jackson and Farrah Fawcett. I bet Farrah is up in heaven saying, "Damn it MJ, why do you gotta outdo my death?" Just kidding! They are in a better place and at least Farrah can now rest in peace. I read she was struggling with cancer for 2 years. At least she's not suffering anymore. I remember when I was younger I'd constantly ask my dad if he could play his Michael Jackson record. Yes, my dad played vinyl records in the 90s. I wanted him to play "Billie Jean" so I can pretend I'm doing the moon walk. I wonder if my dad still has that vinyl. Rest in peace to both of them.

A Fat Girl Inside

I swear I feel like I'm a fat girl inside. Food is my weakness and it will always be. I'm always thinking about food and lately I've been in a baking mood which is not good for my workout schedule. I've also been snacking a lot lately, which is a good thing. I'm eating little meals every couple of hours. My coworker gets a kick out of it. I'm always telling him around 9am that I'm hungry. But they are also shocked as to how much I can eat. When I eat, I can go to town if I wanted to. Hopefully it doesn't catch up to me when I get older. One good thing is that I can push myself to workout so I guess it's a good balance. I eat crap and then work it off later. One day I'll get that flat stomach when I have self discipline to what I put in my mouth.

You Didn't Go to Mine, So Why Do I Have to Go to Yours?

I've created a monster 3 years ago. 3 years ago, my friend from junior high broke up with her boyfriend of like 5 years. I felt bad for Bobby because he was so depressed. So 3 years ago, I was all about clubbing all the time. Every weekend, I was dancing and drinking the night away. I brought Bobby with me a few times since he never went clubbing before. He fell in love with both clubbing and me, and only one of us returned their love. Can you guess it wasn't me? And from then on, he's been clubbing EVERYDAY. I have no idea how he does it. I'm told he still has his pharmacy tech job. How does he have the energy and money to still be clubbing this much? And since then, he's been all about partying. His birthday is no exception. Every year, he's been celebrating his birthday for a whole week. Who does that?! Who has the time to do that? Anyways, he keeps advertising it on facebook, myspace, and through texts. It's so annoying. He wants us to come and celebrate his birthday all week, but Jill and I realized on Friday that he never comes to our birthdays. How fair is that?? So on Friday, we were all trying to decide what to do after dinner, and none of us wanted to go clubbing with him. He just doesn't make it appealing anymore. With all the constant updates and reminders, it just sounds more like a chore then a celebration. Oh well. Happy birthday anyways Bobby.

Public Nail Cutter

My biggest pet peeve has to be cutting nails in public. Especially in closed quarters such as the office! The only time nails should be cut is at a salon when you're getting your nails done. I walked into the office this morning and right when I sat in my cube, I hear someone cutting their nails. I have a feeling who it was since it was coming from in front of me on the other side of my cube wall. I doubt that his nails would come flying to my side of the wall, but just hearing those nails being clipped just gives me the hebegeebees. It's just the thought that a nail that's not mine can go into my own personal space. It's just a personal hygiene that should be kept personal in your own home.

I'm Just Not That Into Him

I can go a long time without talking to him. Even thinking about him. I guess I'm just not that into him anymore. And in the beginning when I realized this, I felt bad. Mainly because I thought he was really into me. But I think we've come to a mutual understanding without having the awkward "I like you but not like like you" talk. He doesn't call me anymore. He texts me on the weekends when he's already out. I'm relieved. I think ever since he got sent to jail for DUI, my attraction for him diminished. I wasn't trying to be judgmental because a lot of my friends and I have driven when we shouldn't have. I'm not proud of myself that I can admit to driving while under the influence. I thank God that nothing happened. Ever since PJ passed away last year, I'm more aware as how capable I am of driving after a night of drinking. There were a couple of times where I wasn't able to hold my liqueur but I have great friends to drive me home. It was the fact that this was his second time running in with the law and both times he firmly believed he wasn't in the wrong. When he point blank said the cops should have just let him with a warning turned me off. It showed that he doesn't take responsibilities for his actions and can't admit when he's wrong. So I shall be moving on with the next guy. Who's next in line? Just kidding! I think I'll enjoy singlehood. I like just hanging out with whoever I want and not having to be half there with the company. Everytime I'm dating someone, I'm always busy texting them while I'm hanging out with friends. So for now, my friends can have my full attention.

What's His Deal?

My dad has always had a temper. Ever since I could remember he rarely came with my mom, sister, and me to family events when it comes to my mom's side. He always used work as an excuse since he does work at night when we usually stuff. But when it's his day off he will say he doesn't have a life and would rather just stay home. It seems like he's just getting worse as the years go by. I have no idea what's his deal. It's like he's depressed or something. It worries me sometimes because he'll just push my mom farther and I'll just get more irritated with him. Hopefully he'll wake up and realize that by isolating himself from these events, he'll just isolate himself from us. But I doubt he'll change. As people grow older, the harder it is for them to change.

Jon & Kate Plus 8 is Great

Only when there's a scandal. I used to watch the show every week but towards the end, Kate just got on my nerves. Then the scandal happened between Jon and Kate and I got sucked in again. I was watching the season premiere on Monday and all I could think of was, 'wow, they barely interacted with one another.' I always wonder if people would stoop so low and just make it a publicity stunt, but it's so obvious that they don't want anything to do with each other. I felt really sad that they are going through this because this will greatly affect the kids. There was a scene where Jon and one of the little girls were having a moment. I think it was Leah. She was talking to Jon about her friend who is a boy and Jon was making sure she doesn't kiss him. It was a cute moment, and then she asked Jon to never go away again. My heart just broke when I heard that. Even at 5 years old, they sensed that their parents were having problems. I just hope they work things out for the sake of the kids. They just renewed their vows for goodness sakes! We shall see as the season progresses.

Bridal Shower Ideas

What do you buy a bride who is extremely conservative and religious? My friend from college is getting married and I got an invitation from her sister to attend her bridal shower. I want to go but at the same time, I'll feel so out of place. First of all, we have different beliefs. So while I'm over there, I'll have to pray with them. I won't really know anyone. The friend(s) that will be there, I don't talk to anymore. So not sure what I'll do. Maybe I'll just go to the wedding. It's not like we're close anymore. I haven't really seen her in years. I think the last time I saw her, she was leaving Vegas for Berkley.

I'm Dating a Jailbird

All day yesterday I was texting him and was wondering why he didn't text back. He usually texts back within a couple of hours unless he was somewhere he didn't have reception. He left me a voice mail last night while I was getting ready to go to Yard House. He said that he had a story to tell me. I wonder what that story was so I called him while I was getting dressed.

M: Hey. What's up? What's the story?
H: I just got out of jail.
M: What?! Uh. What happened?

Apparently he was partying all night Saturday night and sun rising Sunday he was going home on the 215 driving 5 mph over the speed limit when he got pulled over. The cop asked if he's been drinking and he said yea but the last drink I had was at midnight. So he was asked to step out of the car and was taken to jail. The legal limit is .080 and he blew a .082. He was complaining to me that the cop was overreacting and he should have just let him go since he was near his house. And I had to rationalize it to him that the cop was just doing his job and if he did let him go and something happened it would be the cop's fault. Yea the cop was a bit anal for pulling you over for just going over 5 mph but maybe he saw something else. Maybe you were swerving and you didn't know? I don't understand how people will make mistakes and when a cop turns them in, it's the cop's fault. They're just doing their job! So now he has a DUI on his record. And honestly, it's turning me off a little. Aprille and I were talking last night and we confessed to driving while being really buzzed that once we get home, we wonder how did we get home. But we don't do that anymore. I know my limit, and I will not drive if I can't. And when I drink, I will drive overly responsible. Last night, I had 2 drinks and 2 shots. Driving home, I saw about 5 cops. I drove the speed limit. I signaled for every turn. I didn't switch lanes too much. I got home safe without getting pulled over. And just be smart about it. It's a 3 day weekend, you should know that there will be LOTS of cops out there during the holidays. So maybe CJ was right last night. He was pretty drunk and "Just a Friend" was playing. So he kept singing it to me asking if he is just a friend. Maybe it will be better if he and I just stay friends. But who knows what will happen.

His Status

Not sure what prompted me to go on his facebook, but when I saw that he was signed on in facebook, I felt like I needed to clicked on his profile. I'm pretty sure I'm over him. Actually, I loathe him. I can't believe I ever dated him. But I noticed that he just changed his status to single and he still has our pictures posted in his album. Not sure what I'm feeling at the moment. Yea I hate him, but also I feel sorry for him. What I learned about him, he will never grow up. He will always depend on his parents and probably work in the casino all his life. Deep down I wish that he's hung up on me and regrets he broke up with me. I highly doubt it but that's what everyone things when they get dumped right? Eh whatever. I'm talking to another guy right now. It's a weird feeling dating someone right away. I usually stay single for a long time before actually meeting someone I like. Who knows where this will go. He seems he's really into me. It feels good not to chase a guy for once. Even though I like to chase guys, I've learned from these past few guys I've dated that I SHOULDN'T chase guys. This guy will text or call me without me asking him to. He's the one who invites me to go out all the time. He's also a great singer! The only thing about him is he talks a lot. It's cool that we can hold a conversation, but when I'm tired, I get more tired listening to him talk. Another iffy thing about him is his choice of degree. He wants to study philosophy, which is cool to follow your passion, but seriously. What can you do with that degree? But what I learned about him is that since he served his time in the military, once he gets his degree, he can learn to be a pilot which is what he really wants to do with his life. Maybe I'm just picking at his faults cuz I've been hurt so many times I don't want to fall for another guy and risk getting hurt again. We'll see where this goes.

Chap Stick Withdrawls

I miss my chap stick. I miss that feeling of having moisturized vanilla mint lips. I have an addiction and having a cold sore is a chap stick addict's nightmare. I'm using an antiviral cream on the cold sore and it said to not use anything on your lips. I'm only on my first day and I'm dying. I actually cheated. I put some chapstick on the other side of my lips that isn't infected with this cold sore. I should just throw that chap stick away though. It has cold sore germs on it.

My addict is so bad that one time my sister and I went to go shopping. She was driving and I realized I forgot my chap stick 5 minutes after we left the house. I asked if we could go back. She refused. I instantly felt my lips drying up and I tried to convince her to go back. She refused again and said we're wasting time if we went back. So I told her to stop by the Walgreens so I can buy another tube of chap stick. I'm being serious! I went to the pharmacy and bought another tube! They need to have Chap Stick Anonymous because this is a crazy addiction. Pretty soon I'm going to have the shaky hands going on just waiting for my next fix. It's hard to keep my tounge in my mouth too. I've been licking my lips once in awhile and that just feeds the flame to my addiction. My lips get drier and my temptation for my chap stick grows more. I seriously need help. Hurry up and heal lips so you can get rewarded with lucious vanilla mint. Mmmmm.

Dirty People Club

I went to the doctor today to diagnose this monstrous thing growing near my bottom lip and my doctor told me it looks like a cold sore. Great! I should have went with my first instinct on Friday. This would have been gone a long time ago if I didn't listen to that damn pharmacist and bought Abreva on Friday. I told my doctor I asked the pharmacist on Friday so I can buy some medication and she said, 'oh what do they know.' Since I complained they told me it wasn't a cold sore so I left it alone until I saw her. So now I'm suffering for a few more days because it grew more since then and to top it off, there are 2 more growing! I'm going to be in hiding for a long time.
The second I walked into work after the doctor's visit, my coworker Tom asked what's the verdict. My response? I'm a member of the Dirty People Club now. He likes to joke around that only 'dirty' people get cold sores or the medical term, herpes and NOT genital herpes mind you (they are different!) So he said, I knew deep down you are a dirty girl! So the whole day we were joking around how dirty we are. Besides, I think the reason why I got hit on on Saturday at Union Plaza was because of this cold sore. Who in their right mind would tell a girl she's hot when she has a honking cold sore on her face?? Only a guy who thinks she's easy would. Well, that's how I see it. But he probably looked passed my badge of dirty honor and saw my true beauty. Who knows. I turned him down because he creeped me out by following me to the bathroom and waiting for me to come out. Weirdo.
Anyways, it gonna sucks that I have this ugly cold sore this weekend. It's a 3 day weekend and people will wanna see me. So my plan this weekend? Bake a cheesecake on Friday. If the cold sore shrinks a bit, then dinner date with the boy on Saturday and maybe go clubbing with Aprille Sunday. If the cold sore is gone, then I'm gonna have a dirrrty weekend. ;)

Vicks Cures All

A couple of days ago, I woke up with this aching red bump near my bottom lip. I felt like my lip was a bit swollen too. As the days went by, the bump grew and hurt more. I thought it was a cold sore since it was near my lip. But it also looked like a pimple or a bug bite. So I didn't know what it was. I told my mom about it and asked if she knew what it was. She said she gets them sometimes and to just put vicks vapor rub on it. What?! Are you sure?! My mom thinks vicks cures everything. Every time I tell her I have something, she says to just put on some vicks and it'll go away soon. She reminds me of My Big Fat Greek Wedding where they believe windex cures everything too. I was so worried about having a cold sore and wanting it to go away as soon as possible that I went to walgreens today to ask the pharmacist if I have a cold sore or not. Even though it's not a cold sore, I'm still going into hiding. This pimple or bug bite is hideous. I have a date tomorrow but I'm canceling it since the fam bam is coming down from California and staying at my house. I wanted to stay home this weekend anyways. So I'm just using this opportunity to take some r&r. The boy understands so it's all good. Besides, I don't want him to see me with this nasty bump on my lip.

Our First Fight

Well, technically it wasn't really a fight. It was more of Jill's annoyance with me. She asked me if I wanted to go to the San Gennaro Feast with her and our friends. I told her no since I'll be going with Keoni on Friday. And she was like, wow when did this happened? And I told her that I've been hanging out with him since Sunday and she got mad that I never told her. She said I always do that. I always tell her important things late and she felt that she's not that important for me to tell her as soon as things happen. I felt so bad because I realized that I do tell her important things after I see the effects. I appoligized but reassured her that she is the first person I tell things. I just tell her later because I'm in my own little world that I like to soak in what just happened before telling people. I told her I'm going to work on that because she is important to me and she always tells me everything as soon as possible when things happen to her. Friendships and relationships are a two way street and I should start stepping up and do my part.

On another note. I don't understand why some people don't let me catch a break. Why is it that people are allowed to say no to me, but when I say no, they give me grief for it and try to make me feel guilty? I understand when people say they can't come out at night because of work, but when I say I have work, I'm told that they won't go out with me the next time I invite them out. There have been many times where people will either tell me know they can't go or they'll say they'll go and just not show up. What do I do? I forgive them and just say we'll catch up next time. You try sitting in front of a computer for 9 hours a day and you'll know why I need my sleep. It sucks being a grown up but everyone's gotta do it. I just had to do it sooner than everyone else.

Good News Bad News

My life this week has been a series of bad luck. I swear I'm truly lucky at being unlucky. Earlier this year, I started to feel like crap. I thought I had a cold so I took cold medicine the first day. Then I realized it must be allergies because it came all of a sudden. Friday morning, I started feeling much better. So I got excited because I could have fun at Perry's wedding without having to deal with a runny nose. So that's the good news. But good news doesn't come without some bad news.
Bad news is. While I was getting ready, I threw my back out. Yea. How sad right? I'm fucking 24 years old, and my back went out on me. And it was stupid on how I threw it out. I was reaching with one arm for my Louis Vuitton purse in its LV bag in my closet. I forgot there was a catalog in there. When I was bringing it down, the catalog decided to switch sides inside the bag and it started to fall. So I reached with my farthest arm to catch it and I overreached and pulled something. Imagine a 24 year old yelling, "Owwww. My back! Damn I'm old, did that just come out of my mouth?" I seriously felt really old when I couldn't bend over and pick up my shoes. And everyone gave me old woman jokes asking if I want a wheelchair and started laughing. Har har har. Thanks guys. I'm in so much pain and I'm glad you're able to get a kick out of my pain. And the only person who can fix my back got married yesterday. So for now, I have to live with the pain. Guess it's time to go to the doctor again for a stupid injury. Remember my tennis injury? Yea I seem to get injured in rediculously crazy ways.