How Gay Are You?

According to the Gay Meter, I'm 33% gay where "I'm a straight-laced girlie girl with just a hint of my butch side sometimes popping out." I told Eric to take it and let me know his results. It might change our relationship. Just kidding.

Myspace Status

Why is it that Myspace has become so mainstream that everything that happens has to revolve around Myspace? So my relationship status changed from being single to being in a relationship on Thursday when Eric asked me to go steady with him. I will forever tease him about that. Who says 'steady' nowadays? But that's what attracted me to him anyways. He's so different from a lot of guys out there. Anyways, I'm getting off track. Ever since he and I became a couple, a lot of my friends keep mentioning I must change my status on Myspace from being 'single' to being 'in a relationship'. I keep telling them that I'll change it eventually but I'd rather tell the important people in my life before changing my status. I don't want people resorting to the internet for updates on my life. I'd rather be the one to tell them about the most exciting news that's going on in my life right now then having them read it through the web. Besides no one has met him yet. For all they know, I probably just made him up right? Don't worry, he's very much real.

Late Night Texts Again.

So wondering how Eric asked me to be his girlfriend? Right after our date last week, we made plans to just watch movies at his house next Friday night (yesterday). He likes to make plans for our next date right when the current date is ending. Anyways, so he texts me on Thursday during work while I was watching Lost.

E: Want to go out go out?
M: What do you got in mind? [I'm thinking he wants to do something besides staying at home and watching movies]
E: No go out
M: What? Im confused lol. U asked me if i want to go out go out as in not stayin in ur house? lol can you clarify im having a blonde moment. lol
E: No date
M: Do i want to go out on a date? lol ask me da question again lol [I'm seriously confused]
E: You want to go steady lol
M: Steady as in....lol [At this point, I know where he's going but I want to mess with him and actually ask me to be his girlfriend]
E: Yea we have been talking for like two months if not thats cool
M: R u tryin to ask me to b ur gf? lol
E: I know i always feel weird saying it initially.
M: I was giving u a hard time lol i know wat steady meant lol i just wanted u to say gf lol but you didnt
E: Why u messin with me lol
M: Its fun and cuz ur cute. lol

He told me Friday morning that he knew what I was trying to get him to say that's why he didn't say 'girlfriend' but I made him say it last night when we were watching Princess Bride. He bought Princess Bride so I can watch it since I've never seen it before. Most guys would just rent it but he said it's a romantic movie and wants to own it so we can watch it more then once. And of course I said yes. :)

Story of My Life

Seems like history likes to repeat itself when it comes to my love life. Right when I finally feel happy, God pushes me off a cliff only to fall back to reality. I feel like I'm never meant to be happy. I really thought for the first time I finally found someone, then I wake up and find myself in the same relationship I was in last year. Don't get me wrong, Eric is an awesome guy. He's an awesome guy dealt with the wrong cards. Today he just told me that there was an outbreak at work and can change our relationship. He told me he found a rash on his arm when he work up today and that a few days ago someone got fired for lying about their health. This guy didn't let anyone know he had herpes and had an outbreak while on the job. One of his coworkers tested positive for it and now he has a feeling he has it too. Thanks a lot God. I was really excited when Eric asked me to be his girlfriend yesterday only to be kicked down today with this news. I pray that it's only a rash and we're overreacting. He was really worried when he was telling me and asked if I would break up with him if it was true he has herpes. I told him don't worry about it. Let's think positive thoughts and hope for the best. Please pray that it's just a rash or something not serious of the sort. I really dig this guy and I really think he will get along with everyone who is dear to my heart.

No Alcohol Please

So today is my first day I can drink now. I finally finished my month long bet with Moises where I can't drink at all and guess what? I didn't even feel like it. My friend Angela thought something was wrong with me when I refused to take shots with her. I took one shot of the lychee sake and even though it was really good, I didn't feel like drinking. So maybe there's hope for me in my new year's resolution of cutting back on the alcohol.

Just Another Day

So today is Valentine's day eh? I didn't even know Valentine's day was coming up that fast until my friend told me yesterday. I told her we'll go to the gym on Thursday and we'll have to work hard since we haven't been in awhile. And her response. "On Valentine's day?? Where's the love?" Ok, we'll take a break this week. Valentine's day is just another day for me. I'm usually single on this 'special' day so I don't really care for it. The past two years, my Valentine was a guy I was currently dating though. I guess since I'm usually single on Valentine's day, I don't really care for it even if I'm seeing someone. I guess I'm just not your typical girl who gets excited on this holiday. Maybe one day a guy will come along and change that. But for now, Happy Valentine's Day I guess.

History Repeaing Itself

It feels like I should be used to it by now. The phone rings and it's a relative looking for my mom delivering some bad news. It was exactly one year ago I was preparing to spend almost a week in California for my grandmother's funeral. I remember crying in my boss' office asking if I could go home early for the rest of the day. About a year and a month ago, we got that dreadful phone call that my grandmother had an accident and our phone was constantly ringing with news from relatives. It was about a year ago where I told Andrew I wouldn't be here for Valentine's Day because I'll be in California burying my grandmother. Today, I feel like I'm experiencing deja vu. Our phone constantly ringing. This time it's my grandma's brother. I was told during work by my aunt who was looking for my mom that he had collapsed and is now in critical condition. I instantly thought of the worst when I heard 'critical condition'. I am trying to be hopeful because I am not ready for another funeral. I'm not ready to go back to California dressed in black. I don't want to sound selfish but I don't want to have to tell Eric that I will not be here to celebrate our first Valentine's together. I feel like February is not my family's best month. It seems like Valentine's day isn't a holiday I should be celebrating. I want to be hopeful but 'critical condition' is just so...critical. And I overheard my aunt talking to my mom that he has a breathing tube to breathe for him and the doctors took 30 minutes trying to revive him. It doesn't look too good for my family. My family all felt that 2007 was the worst year of our lives. We lost the matriarch of the family, five years after we lost the patriarch. A lot of my family members are in the real estate business so a lot of them lost their jobs because of the housing market is in a slump. It seems like 2008 is mirroring 2007. This year is supposed to be a great year. It started off great. And I hope it'll stay like that, even just a little while.

Oh My Aching Ear

Earlier this afternoon I had this shooting pain in my ear. It was as if someone was poking the inside of my ear with a needle. Great. I think I have an ear infection. My aunt was at my house a few hours ago and I asked her what the symptoms were for an ear infection.

Ringing ears or clogged hearing. Check.
Headaches. Check.
Ear pains. Check.
Fever. Nope.

I'm hoping I don't have an ear infection. I'm going to California on Saturday and I don't think the high altitudes will agree with an ear infection. Pray for me.

Late Night Texts

E: Who is gonna be your valentine?
M: Hmm. I'm not sure who my valentine will be. No one yet. :(
E: Will you be mine or you got some other guy in mind?
M: Well there is this other guy lol jk ill b ur valentine ;)
E: You sure i dont want to twist your arm
M: lol im sure :) ur way cuter then the other guy anyways lol
E: lol your not so bad yourself

I'm glad we finally got text on our cell phone plan. It's the only time I get to talk to Eric now that he works graveyard. And talking to him more got him to ask me to be his valentine. I hope this year will be better then last year. Andrew was definitely a disappointment.

This Is Not a Facial, it's More Like a Chestial

I went to a spa last night to get a facial and instead the woman was more focused on my chest and neck area. I think she cleansed the skin on my neck and chest more then my face. Then when it came down to my face, she was doing some extractions that hurt like a mother. She was trying to get some of the white heads near my eyes which left me with some red marks like I had just tried popping a zit. Thanks a lot lady, and I have a date tonight. When she finally focused on my face she slathered on some clay mask on my face. A few minutes later, she was washing my face and was putting on some moisturizer. Then she continued to massage my face but with a tapping motion like she was slapping me with her fingers. If I wanted my face to get hit, I'd get in a fight. And then she started massaging my scalp which left me with extremely tangled hair. I left the spa looking like I had sex hair and I wasn't satisfied. Thank goodness that facial was free. I would not pay that much money for that kind of treatment. The last time I was there, I had the most amazing time. The girl was really sensitive to my skin's needs and knew what it needed. Next time, I'll be asking for Amber when I make my next appointment.

Have a Good Day Baby.

I really like being called baby by women who work at gas stations. I go to the same gas stations every week since I've started working at my current job. I alternate which gas station I visit depending on which is 5 cents cheaper. And each gas station leaves me feeling special and welcomed. I notice that the women who work in gas stations will call everyone baby.
"Hi baby, how can I help you?"
"Can I just have 20 bucks on number 2?"
"Alright. Have a great night baby."

Being called 'baby' by a stranger doesn't have to be creepy sometimes. Only when it's coming from a woman at a gas station. Oh yea, and I love it when my waitress calls me 'sweetie' or 'hunny' but they have to only be older women. I think it's cute when women call strangers using pet names. But of course, if a man calls me that then I'd be creeped out.

6 Years.

It's been six years since my grandpa has passed away and I still think about him from time to time. He was my first experience with death and I took it pretty hard. My family is pretty superstitious and believe that when someone passes, they will visit their loved ones for 40 days. A few days after he passed away, I believe he did visit me. I was in my room studying for an exam with the tv turned on in the background. That's how I study. While I was reading my notes, my tv kept turning off. Every time it turned off, I'd turn it back on. There was nothing on top of the remote to make the tv turn off. I ran out of my room to tell my sister. My sister said it was Papang's (what we call my grandpa) way of saying to focus on studying and to turn of the tv. I quickly turned off my tv and just focused on my notes.

Well, two days ago, I believe he visited me again. I was so exhausted from staying up late talking to Eric that I went to bed around 9:30pm on Thursday. I figured Eric wasn't going to call me since his time changed happened on Thursday and he'd be working graveyard now. Around 12:30am, I get a text message. I turned over and reached for my phone to read the text message. It was Eric greeting me good night. After I finished reading the text message, I looked up near my desk and I saw this figure. It looked like a tall man looking at me. I freaked out and turned my back to the dark figure and I closed my eyes. In my head I kept reciting the line, 'there's no one there, there's no one there.' The next day, I realized it might have been my grandpa looking out for me since it was close to his death anniversary. Or maybe he was approving of Eric. :)

In the Stars

So I added this horoscope application on Facebook awhile back and recently I've never been so amused with my horoscopes. It seems like the stars know that I'm dating someone who has some potential. For the first time, I feel optimistic about this guy. I'm trying to avoid admitting to myself that I'm falling for Eric because I'm scared of getting hurt but everyone seems to notice I am falling for him. Anyways, yesterday my horoscope told me

"You are a classic flirt today and you may have to turn the temperature down a notch or two because you'll be hot hot hot! Your energy is well into overload. You'll be sassy, spontaneous and highly attractive and there will be no better time than today for some extra-curricular recreation."

I'm sassy eh? And I'm looking for some extra curricular recreations. I wonder what those extra curricular recreations are.

And then today I logged onto Facebook to see what is in store for me today.

"Romantic energies are highly erratic and interesting today, but there is a monkey-wrench in the mixture. Keyword is "children". If you are a parent and have an amorous moment this evening, lock the door. If you are not a parent and don't want to become one, play safely!"

At least Facebook doesn't mind that everyone doesn't practice abstinence anymore and encourages safe sex. Too bad Eric is working tonight. Can I reuse a horoscope for a different day?

Bad Timing for Us

So at my friend's hotel party on the first Friday of the year, I met this guy. We instantly clicked. My friend thought we were dating at least two weeks when she saw us together. I felt that this guy was probably going to be the first guy to be different from the rest. He is really cute, funny, sweet, and he gives me his undivided attention. But I guess the dating gods like to play tricks on me. Even though I may be jumping the gun and I'm probably just overreacting but I think this weekend will probably be the last time I see Eric. Last night, Eric told me that his work shift is going to change sooner. His shift is 6pm-6am six days a week where my work shift is 8am-5pm. This will be his shift till the UFC season is over in the end of March. How cruel is that. I'm so used to talking to him for a few hours almost every night since we've met. I just wish we met after the season is over or maybe a month earlier. This weekend will be our second official date but it feels like we've been together for at least a month. But you'll never know. It'll be like a long distance relationship. If we really do like each other that much, we'll make it work. Just pray that it does work out. I'm really happy for the first time. Well except now cuz now I'm worried something will ruin my happiness after I waited so long.

Your Ami

I was watching America's Funniest Home Videos and I saw the cutest video ever. This little girl that's around 4 or 5 years old was on a beach and her dad was asking her where she was.
Dad: Sweetie, tell everyone where we are.
Girl: We're in your...ami.
Dad: No, the word is 'Miami'.
Girl: Yeah, we're in your...am..ami.
Dad: Nooo. Ok. We're in your ami.
Girl: Oh ok. We're in Mine ami.

I could just eat her up. It was the cutest thing ever. It makes me want to go to your ami for some sun.

GHETTO

So last night my friend Angela threw a suite party at Mandalay Bay. Oh man, this suite was like a condo. It was huge! The alcohol flowing. The music bumping. Seeing everyone you haven't seen in awhile. It was a great party until security came knocking at the door. Apparently there was about 27 complaints that we were too loud. After everyone left, Angela saw that some people stole things from the mini bar. Talk about ghetto with a capital G. There was so much alcohol in the bar and people stole the mini alcohol. So not only did Angela pay for the alcohol, room, and food, but she now has to pay for the overpriced alcohol someone stole. It's so hard to trust people these days.

My Plan For 2008

It's only been two days into the new year and my plan for this year is to survive. I want to be able to see 2009. Two days into this new year, I've had about four really close car accidents. But with my quick reflexes I was able to avoid them. There are so many stupid drivers out there, including me. So far I was able to avoid the following car accidents.

- January 1st, 3am. Driving home with a friend of mine talking about where to make a quick food run before getting home. As I am approaching the intersection with a green light ahead, I see at the corner of my eyes a car whose light is clearly red will not slow down. He was surely going at least 45mph and was probably too drunk to notice the red light.
- January 1st, 3:15am. Still driving home while talking to my friend about the car who just drove through a red light and looking for Jack in the Crack [Box]. Distracted I drive through a red light. So maybe the previous driver wasn't really drunk and was doing a food run as well.
- January 2nd, 5:30pm. Driving home from work, I switch lanes to the far left while a car in the outer right turning lane decides to switch to the same lane. I'm swerving between both lanes trying to gain control of my car since I was going about 40 mph.
- January 2nd, 6:30pm. Driving on the freeway to Henderson to a casino for diner. On the far left lane when the car next to me decides he doesn't want to exit and goes straight trying to get into my lane causing me to quickly break to avoid him.

I sure hope that 2008 isn't my year for a car accident. I've never been in a car accident and I sure don't want it to be anytime soon. Pray that I survive 2008 guys!

And Who's House is This?

My dad's friend from the Philippines stayed at my house last year because her sons wanted to find a better job in America then they can get in the Philippines. At first I didn't mind because I'm sure they would do the same thing for us if we visit the Philippines. But just because you stay in our house for a month doesn't mean it's actually your house. A few weeks ago, they came back and stayed in my house again. The last time they were here, her sons weren't successful at finding a job and ran out of time. Their temporary visa expired and they were sent back to the Philippines. So the woman, one of her sons, and a friend from California came to stay at my house for a couple of days. The moment Vickie stepped in my house, she pretty much felt at home. She was going through our cabinets and made herself coffee. She was making herself food and left a lot of mess for us to clean up. One day, my cousin came over real quick to drop something off and she offered him hopia that my mom made and always gave away every Christmas. The way she offered it appeared as if she was the one who made them. After three days, I think my mom got so irritated that my dad took them to our other house to stay at.

I think the icing on the cake was when Vickie's friend Evelyn thought she could do the same thing and act as if she lived in our house. We just met the woman a few weeks ago when Vickie came back to Las Vegas. A couple of days ago, Evelyn and Vickie came over and were talking downstairs with my mom while my mom was making dinner. When all of a sudden Evelyn gets up and goes upstairs without asking my mom. My mom didn't even know she was going upstairs until Vickie asked where she was going. Evelyn's response. 'I'm going upstairs to use the internet. I want to check my tickets online.' My mom was shocked to hear this woman whom we barely even know is going upstairs without asking permission. My mom wanted to slap her. But my mother is a classy woman and would never do such a thing but I can't say the same thing for myself. When I heard she didn't even ask my mom if she could come upstairs made me furious. Who does that? These people need to learn some respect for other people's homes.

Same Resolution As Always

So it's that time of year when everyone prepares to make their typical New Year's resolution. You know, the 'I'll get fit', the 'I'll stop smoking', etc types of resolutions. Well my resolution is pretty much the same thing. I believe 2008 will be a great year. I definitely learned a lot about myself in 2007. I've been through a roller coaster of emotions and I think I've grown up a bit this year. So my New Year's resolution for 2008 is:

- Get fit & healthy. I always say I'm going on a diet, but this year, I'm not calling it a diet. I will be getting healthy.
- Fix skin. I haven't had clear skin since puberty and I'm tired of it. Lots of people still have acne after their teen years but my skin seems to be more severe then others. I'm tired of touching up my pictures but the positive part is I'm getting better at photoshop. I'm going to a dermatologist or maybe a medspa to get it cleared. I just hope it works.
- Find love. I want to prove that there are decent guys out there in Las Vegas. I don't want some random hook up. I don't want to date around. I want just one guy out there to prove to me he's not like any other guy in Las Vegas. I think I'll try and give most guys a chance this year instead of being so picky.
- Travel. I want to at least travel out of the country once this coming year. Even if it's Mexico. I learned that a vacation really does wonders.
- Love my job. I want to be able to love my job even if it's not my current job. If an opportunity knocks at my door, I will consider it instead of saying yes then backing out. I did that a lot this year and I'm sure I missed out on a lot of great opportunities.
- Less drinking. Okay, maybe this one will be harder especially when a lot of my friends strongly disagree on this topic. I think instead I'll say, I'll drink less then I usually do when I do drink. Instead of drinking 5 shots, I'll drink 3 shots. This will help my liver too.
- Private life. I've been known to never being able to keep things a secret either if it's my personal life or other lives. If there's drama in my life, I tell everyone. So here's to keeping my mouth shut in 2008. I don't need to tell everyone about my personal life. Only the selected few.

I'll let you know next New Year if I succeeded in any of these resolutions. I'll see you next year!

Not Our Typical Christmas

So this year was the first Christmas without my grandparents and is officially the first year we broke our Christmas tradition. Ever since I could remember, my whole family on my mom's side would spend Christmas together under one roof. And it takes a big roof to house us too. My mom had nine brothers and sisters and each sibling has at least two children. So you do the math. Christmas was never quiet. Even though we all weren't together this year, it was still a loud Christmas. While 90% of my family members were in California celebrating Christmas, the few that were left behind in Las Vegas came over to my house. And if you know my family, the holiday was spent gambling, eating, and singing. It would have included alcohol but the majority of the people at my house were under aged. Instead my cousin brought over a bingo game and we gambled instead. I even walked away with five bucks. Everyone had a singing contest to see who could get the highest point on the magic mic. You are not Filipino if you don't have a magic mic. But the best part was watching my godson Angelo open up his presents. I bought him this K'nex building set and he was so excited that he opened it up right away. The cutest part was that while he was building away with his hands, his foot was holding the manual open. My godson is only six years old and he was able to build all sorts of stuff.