Jon & Kate Plus 8 is Great

Only when there's a scandal. I used to watch the show every week but towards the end, Kate just got on my nerves. Then the scandal happened between Jon and Kate and I got sucked in again. I was watching the season premiere on Monday and all I could think of was, 'wow, they barely interacted with one another.' I always wonder if people would stoop so low and just make it a publicity stunt, but it's so obvious that they don't want anything to do with each other. I felt really sad that they are going through this because this will greatly affect the kids. There was a scene where Jon and one of the little girls were having a moment. I think it was Leah. She was talking to Jon about her friend who is a boy and Jon was making sure she doesn't kiss him. It was a cute moment, and then she asked Jon to never go away again. My heart just broke when I heard that. Even at 5 years old, they sensed that their parents were having problems. I just hope they work things out for the sake of the kids. They just renewed their vows for goodness sakes! We shall see as the season progresses.

Bridal Shower Ideas

What do you buy a bride who is extremely conservative and religious? My friend from college is getting married and I got an invitation from her sister to attend her bridal shower. I want to go but at the same time, I'll feel so out of place. First of all, we have different beliefs. So while I'm over there, I'll have to pray with them. I won't really know anyone. The friend(s) that will be there, I don't talk to anymore. So not sure what I'll do. Maybe I'll just go to the wedding. It's not like we're close anymore. I haven't really seen her in years. I think the last time I saw her, she was leaving Vegas for Berkley.

I'm Dating a Jailbird

All day yesterday I was texting him and was wondering why he didn't text back. He usually texts back within a couple of hours unless he was somewhere he didn't have reception. He left me a voice mail last night while I was getting ready to go to Yard House. He said that he had a story to tell me. I wonder what that story was so I called him while I was getting dressed.

M: Hey. What's up? What's the story?
H: I just got out of jail.
M: What?! Uh. What happened?

Apparently he was partying all night Saturday night and sun rising Sunday he was going home on the 215 driving 5 mph over the speed limit when he got pulled over. The cop asked if he's been drinking and he said yea but the last drink I had was at midnight. So he was asked to step out of the car and was taken to jail. The legal limit is .080 and he blew a .082. He was complaining to me that the cop was overreacting and he should have just let him go since he was near his house. And I had to rationalize it to him that the cop was just doing his job and if he did let him go and something happened it would be the cop's fault. Yea the cop was a bit anal for pulling you over for just going over 5 mph but maybe he saw something else. Maybe you were swerving and you didn't know? I don't understand how people will make mistakes and when a cop turns them in, it's the cop's fault. They're just doing their job! So now he has a DUI on his record. And honestly, it's turning me off a little. Aprille and I were talking last night and we confessed to driving while being really buzzed that once we get home, we wonder how did we get home. But we don't do that anymore. I know my limit, and I will not drive if I can't. And when I drink, I will drive overly responsible. Last night, I had 2 drinks and 2 shots. Driving home, I saw about 5 cops. I drove the speed limit. I signaled for every turn. I didn't switch lanes too much. I got home safe without getting pulled over. And just be smart about it. It's a 3 day weekend, you should know that there will be LOTS of cops out there during the holidays. So maybe CJ was right last night. He was pretty drunk and "Just a Friend" was playing. So he kept singing it to me asking if he is just a friend. Maybe it will be better if he and I just stay friends. But who knows what will happen.

His Status

Not sure what prompted me to go on his facebook, but when I saw that he was signed on in facebook, I felt like I needed to clicked on his profile. I'm pretty sure I'm over him. Actually, I loathe him. I can't believe I ever dated him. But I noticed that he just changed his status to single and he still has our pictures posted in his album. Not sure what I'm feeling at the moment. Yea I hate him, but also I feel sorry for him. What I learned about him, he will never grow up. He will always depend on his parents and probably work in the casino all his life. Deep down I wish that he's hung up on me and regrets he broke up with me. I highly doubt it but that's what everyone things when they get dumped right? Eh whatever. I'm talking to another guy right now. It's a weird feeling dating someone right away. I usually stay single for a long time before actually meeting someone I like. Who knows where this will go. He seems he's really into me. It feels good not to chase a guy for once. Even though I like to chase guys, I've learned from these past few guys I've dated that I SHOULDN'T chase guys. This guy will text or call me without me asking him to. He's the one who invites me to go out all the time. He's also a great singer! The only thing about him is he talks a lot. It's cool that we can hold a conversation, but when I'm tired, I get more tired listening to him talk. Another iffy thing about him is his choice of degree. He wants to study philosophy, which is cool to follow your passion, but seriously. What can you do with that degree? But what I learned about him is that since he served his time in the military, once he gets his degree, he can learn to be a pilot which is what he really wants to do with his life. Maybe I'm just picking at his faults cuz I've been hurt so many times I don't want to fall for another guy and risk getting hurt again. We'll see where this goes.

Chap Stick Withdrawls

I miss my chap stick. I miss that feeling of having moisturized vanilla mint lips. I have an addiction and having a cold sore is a chap stick addict's nightmare. I'm using an antiviral cream on the cold sore and it said to not use anything on your lips. I'm only on my first day and I'm dying. I actually cheated. I put some chapstick on the other side of my lips that isn't infected with this cold sore. I should just throw that chap stick away though. It has cold sore germs on it.

My addict is so bad that one time my sister and I went to go shopping. She was driving and I realized I forgot my chap stick 5 minutes after we left the house. I asked if we could go back. She refused. I instantly felt my lips drying up and I tried to convince her to go back. She refused again and said we're wasting time if we went back. So I told her to stop by the Walgreens so I can buy another tube of chap stick. I'm being serious! I went to the pharmacy and bought another tube! They need to have Chap Stick Anonymous because this is a crazy addiction. Pretty soon I'm going to have the shaky hands going on just waiting for my next fix. It's hard to keep my tounge in my mouth too. I've been licking my lips once in awhile and that just feeds the flame to my addiction. My lips get drier and my temptation for my chap stick grows more. I seriously need help. Hurry up and heal lips so you can get rewarded with lucious vanilla mint. Mmmmm.

Dirty People Club

I went to the doctor today to diagnose this monstrous thing growing near my bottom lip and my doctor told me it looks like a cold sore. Great! I should have went with my first instinct on Friday. This would have been gone a long time ago if I didn't listen to that damn pharmacist and bought Abreva on Friday. I told my doctor I asked the pharmacist on Friday so I can buy some medication and she said, 'oh what do they know.' Since I complained they told me it wasn't a cold sore so I left it alone until I saw her. So now I'm suffering for a few more days because it grew more since then and to top it off, there are 2 more growing! I'm going to be in hiding for a long time.
The second I walked into work after the doctor's visit, my coworker Tom asked what's the verdict. My response? I'm a member of the Dirty People Club now. He likes to joke around that only 'dirty' people get cold sores or the medical term, herpes and NOT genital herpes mind you (they are different!) So he said, I knew deep down you are a dirty girl! So the whole day we were joking around how dirty we are. Besides, I think the reason why I got hit on on Saturday at Union Plaza was because of this cold sore. Who in their right mind would tell a girl she's hot when she has a honking cold sore on her face?? Only a guy who thinks she's easy would. Well, that's how I see it. But he probably looked passed my badge of dirty honor and saw my true beauty. Who knows. I turned him down because he creeped me out by following me to the bathroom and waiting for me to come out. Weirdo.
Anyways, it gonna sucks that I have this ugly cold sore this weekend. It's a 3 day weekend and people will wanna see me. So my plan this weekend? Bake a cheesecake on Friday. If the cold sore shrinks a bit, then dinner date with the boy on Saturday and maybe go clubbing with Aprille Sunday. If the cold sore is gone, then I'm gonna have a dirrrty weekend. ;)

Vicks Cures All

A couple of days ago, I woke up with this aching red bump near my bottom lip. I felt like my lip was a bit swollen too. As the days went by, the bump grew and hurt more. I thought it was a cold sore since it was near my lip. But it also looked like a pimple or a bug bite. So I didn't know what it was. I told my mom about it and asked if she knew what it was. She said she gets them sometimes and to just put vicks vapor rub on it. What?! Are you sure?! My mom thinks vicks cures everything. Every time I tell her I have something, she says to just put on some vicks and it'll go away soon. She reminds me of My Big Fat Greek Wedding where they believe windex cures everything too. I was so worried about having a cold sore and wanting it to go away as soon as possible that I went to walgreens today to ask the pharmacist if I have a cold sore or not. Even though it's not a cold sore, I'm still going into hiding. This pimple or bug bite is hideous. I have a date tomorrow but I'm canceling it since the fam bam is coming down from California and staying at my house. I wanted to stay home this weekend anyways. So I'm just using this opportunity to take some r&r. The boy understands so it's all good. Besides, I don't want him to see me with this nasty bump on my lip.

Our First Fight

Well, technically it wasn't really a fight. It was more of Jill's annoyance with me. She asked me if I wanted to go to the San Gennaro Feast with her and our friends. I told her no since I'll be going with Keoni on Friday. And she was like, wow when did this happened? And I told her that I've been hanging out with him since Sunday and she got mad that I never told her. She said I always do that. I always tell her important things late and she felt that she's not that important for me to tell her as soon as things happen. I felt so bad because I realized that I do tell her important things after I see the effects. I appoligized but reassured her that she is the first person I tell things. I just tell her later because I'm in my own little world that I like to soak in what just happened before telling people. I told her I'm going to work on that because she is important to me and she always tells me everything as soon as possible when things happen to her. Friendships and relationships are a two way street and I should start stepping up and do my part.

On another note. I don't understand why some people don't let me catch a break. Why is it that people are allowed to say no to me, but when I say no, they give me grief for it and try to make me feel guilty? I understand when people say they can't come out at night because of work, but when I say I have work, I'm told that they won't go out with me the next time I invite them out. There have been many times where people will either tell me know they can't go or they'll say they'll go and just not show up. What do I do? I forgive them and just say we'll catch up next time. You try sitting in front of a computer for 9 hours a day and you'll know why I need my sleep. It sucks being a grown up but everyone's gotta do it. I just had to do it sooner than everyone else.

Good News Bad News

My life this week has been a series of bad luck. I swear I'm truly lucky at being unlucky. Earlier this year, I started to feel like crap. I thought I had a cold so I took cold medicine the first day. Then I realized it must be allergies because it came all of a sudden. Friday morning, I started feeling much better. So I got excited because I could have fun at Perry's wedding without having to deal with a runny nose. So that's the good news. But good news doesn't come without some bad news.
Bad news is. While I was getting ready, I threw my back out. Yea. How sad right? I'm fucking 24 years old, and my back went out on me. And it was stupid on how I threw it out. I was reaching with one arm for my Louis Vuitton purse in its LV bag in my closet. I forgot there was a catalog in there. When I was bringing it down, the catalog decided to switch sides inside the bag and it started to fall. So I reached with my farthest arm to catch it and I overreached and pulled something. Imagine a 24 year old yelling, "Owwww. My back! Damn I'm old, did that just come out of my mouth?" I seriously felt really old when I couldn't bend over and pick up my shoes. And everyone gave me old woman jokes asking if I want a wheelchair and started laughing. Har har har. Thanks guys. I'm in so much pain and I'm glad you're able to get a kick out of my pain. And the only person who can fix my back got married yesterday. So for now, I have to live with the pain. Guess it's time to go to the doctor again for a stupid injury. Remember my tennis injury? Yea I seem to get injured in rediculously crazy ways.

Trendy Virus

So I'm not feeling very well at the moment. And it's totally bad timing. I hate how I somehow got sick right when the swine flu is going around. When I tell people I'm not feeling well, they automatically think it's the swine flu. It's irritating the hell out of me. Just because I'm sick doesn't automatically mean it's the swine flu. Have some sense people. I don't have the symptoms. I just have a sore throat and runny nose. I don't have a high fever or aching body. It might not even be a cold. I think I have allergies since I got a sore throat all of a sudden last night. Just make sure you know your information before you go and start accusing sick people they have swine flu. It's not funny ostracizing someone for having a cold.

Conspicuously Flirting

Jill sent me a text today saying her friend Keoni is now single! I told her awhile back that I thought he was cute based on his picture on his facebook. But she told me he was on and off with his girlfriend. And I told her that I wasn't looking for a relationship since I just got out of one. I just thought he was cute. I finally met him on Saturday for my friend's birthday and we instantly started a conversation about tennis since he and Jill play tennis once in awhile. I told Jill that we were talking at Risque for a little bit, but I was more focused on hanging out with Steve. And she said that she wished she went to Risque to watch me flirt with Keoni because she finds it amusing how I'm so obvious when I flirt. She told me that she and Ann had fun watching me obviously flirt with Steve the weekend before. I should work on being inconspicuous with my flirting ways. But what sometimes gets me is when I'm not flirting, I come off as being a flirt. It's just the way I talk to people. I get into the conversation sometimes that I tend to touch the person whom I'm talking to. But there was no flirting with Keoni that night. Just making conversation with him and I found him a really nice and funny guy. So who knows what will happen.

Homebound

So I've decided to just take a break on buying a house. I figured I'm not financially ready to buy a house because I'm not ready to give up traveling yet. Even though I haven't really traveled a lot, I like having that option that I can afford to go anywhere. Plus, my mom just asked to borrow some money so I definitely can't buy a house. I can't complain anyways. I get to do anything I want here and I get to come home to a home cooked meal. All I have to do is do the dishes and it's all good.

Lucky at Being Unlucky

After a long night of partying and meeting a really cute guy, I was on an exhaustion high when I was rudely woken up by my mother. She wanted to go shopping for an outfit for my cousin's wedding so I got ready so we can go to the mall when it first opens. So my mom and I drive down Sahara and the next thing we hear is some loud rumblings. I thought it was the guy's car right next to me. But it turned out to be me! I got a flat tire...AGAIN! I just had a flat tire in September. What are the odds?!
So my dad came and changed my tire and we switched cars so I could still go to the mall. I was so depressed that I have to buy a new tire that I went overboard at the mall. I came home with 3 pairs of shoes, 3 dresses, a pair of jeans, and 2 tops. Wow. I went all out today with the shopping. Retail therapy is great until you see the effects a month later. But I rarely splurge so I'm not having any buyer's remorse. Good news though. I don't need to buy a new tire yet. My dad was able to use the old tire from the last time I had a flat.

Bump on the Head

So I'm not sure if I should be alarmed or not, but I've had this massive headache since Monday and I even found a bump on my head. Although, I'm not sure if I've had this bump already or not. And if I didn't have this bump, I don't know how I got it. I don't remember hitting my head. So that's why I'm not sure if I should be frightened or not. I was asking Aprille if I should see a doctor about it since she's a nurse and she asked her boyfriend Rod since he's a doctor. They were supposed to call me last night, but by the time she texted me, I was already sleeping.

I've been sleeping butt early lately. I fell asleep around 9:45pm last night. I wanted to sleep at 9pm, but I forced myself to stay up for 45 minutes and that was a huge struggle. Towards the end, I was pretty much asleep but I woke up at 9:45 just to turn off the tv. I wonder if this headache is from my lack of food intake. Since I've been stressed and depressed lately, I haven't been eating lately. The week I was stressed out about Jason and realized he was going to break up with me, I barely ate. A lot of people will eat when they're stressed, not me. I get nauseous and have no appetite. It was so bad that last weekend, I was down to 95 pounds. Gross huh? Well I've gained a little bit of weight back, but I'm still under 100 pounds. I ate so much on Saturday that I think I gained 5 pounds that day. Not too sure if I like being under 100 pounds. I like how my stomach and arms are skinnier but I don't appreciate my boobs shrinking with the rest of them. So now that I'm back to eating like a normal person, I'm trying to work out to balance it out. But it's hard to work out when you have this headache pounding your head with every little movement you make. I can't wait til I'm back to my normal self. I hate being like this and I'm trying to get over it, but I guess everyone is right. I just need to take it slow.

I'm Not the Same...Yet

I really don't understand how Jason could have this much affect on me. I've been so down lately since the breakup that everyone are noticing that I'm not the bubbly upbeat person anymore. Not everyone at work knows what happened so they'll come up to me and ask me to smile or if I'm ok. Which makes it worst for me cuz I have to put on a smile and say 'yea everything is fine.' I'm trying to be the same person I was before I met Jason and while I was with him, but I can't. I just woke up this morning angry because I had a dream about him where it was like the night we had dinner and he was a total douche bag towards me. I thought I've moved on but I guess I got hurt more than I realized. I have the best friends who will keep me company and ask me how I'm doing and try to cheer me up. I'm greatful for them. Well, it has only been a week since we've broken up so I guess I'm asking too much of myself to get over him already. People keep telling me it takes about half the time we were together to get over someone. So am I supposed to feel crappy for a month and a half? I hate this transition.

It's a No Go

So I decided to cancel my offer for the house. Jill told me the day I was going to sign the papers she couldn't be my roommate anymore. She talked to her mom and her mom begged her to stay at home. Her mom is going through empty nest syndrome and I don't blame her. But sometimes it's best to just let go. I know my parents were getting sad when I said I wanted to move out, but they were really supportive. I still could have moved out, but I didn't feel like living for my house. Living by myself meant I wouldn't be keeping my lifestyle. No more taking vacations whenever I want to. No more splurging on myself whenever I feel like it. I felt so bad too for having to cancel the offer because Amy had came in the office early to fill out my paperwork. She was so nice and patient with me that I felt so bad telling her 2 hours before meeting her I couldn't take the house. This house was perfect for me. It wasn't my first choice but my first choice was made for me with my future family. My first house with my family, I'll definitely have a casita. But this house, it was perfect for a single young woman. It was 1600 square feet, 3 bedrooms, 2 bathrooms and 1 den. It had upgraded flooring to tiles and had surround sound speakers built in. Oh well. It's a sign that I just still need to save up. I still need some traveling to do and meet the one. Maybe he'll buy me my first house. Just being hopeful.

Moving on Up

The past few days I've been looking at houses again. At first I was hesitant to look since the main reason I even considered buying a house was so I can move out and have Jason and I be together alone. But since we broke up on Friday, I thought maybe I could just live at home for awhile. But when I started looking, I realized that maybe it is time I move out. I'm almost 25 and I should learn to grow up now. Learn how to balance my expenses, cook, clean, and such. Hell, if it doesn't work out, I can always move back home and just rent out the place. But looking at houses did take my mind off of the loss of my relationship. When I get home though, I think about him and I'd still go on his facebook to see if he changed his status. As of right now, he still hasn't. Which I'm sure he won't for awhile since he's busy with his two jobs and trying to fit in working out. I don't know why I care so much. I'm sure he doesn't think about me. I bet he's relieved he got rid of me so he has more time to be with his friends and do nothing. I need someone who is emotional mature and is going to be with me for the long haul. For now, it is singlehood again. It sucks but I have no choice. Maybe I should take up on Jill's mom's offer of this cute accountant. But I hate getting set up, but you never know.

The Break Up

Thursday night, Angela and Jill both three wayed me and I knew instantly something was up. Apparently my suspicions were correct. Jason told Matt that he was going to break up with me this weekend and Kelly overheard him and told Angela who then told Jill and me. I was told that Jason doesn't want to be serious with me. Which got me confused because he was the one who chased me for 2 weeks and asked me to be his girlfriend right away. I was the one who asked him to slow down because I felt like we were moving too fast. And I was also told that the only reason why he asked me to be his girlfriend right away was so I wouldn't sleep with anyone else. How selfish and immature is that? He wasted my time and played with my emotions. He told me he was a relationship guy and doesn't like to date around. He should just stick to dating casually then. I was so angry and heartbroken when I heard this that after I got off the phone with them, I texted Kelly for more answers. And she told me that he is really selfish and immature and she hates him. She is glad that I won't be dating him anymore.

So Friday comes along, and the plan was to go clubbing at Jet and break it off with Jason right after. Jill and I rode together since I asked if I could spend the night at her house. I thought that I would be too devastated to drive all the way home by myself. So her whole goal was to get me good and drunk that night. But I decided that it would be best for me not to so I won't get too emotional. I had a good time hanging out with everyone. The only reason why I agreed to come out was because Tiff was in town from Hawaii. We decided to go to Ellis Island after clubbing to hang out for a bit and while I was there, Jason keeps texting and calling me. Asking how was the club and that he was going home already. As he texted me, I was asking Kelly what's going on at home. She was telling me when he got home and what he was doing. I decided to not answer him and let him wait. He left me hanging all week by not talking to me, so why talk to him right?

Around 2:30 am, we decided to just get it done with. Jill and Tiff dropped me off and waited outside. I told them I'll only take ten minutes. So I grab my bag with me so he thinks I don't know we're breaking up. I called him to let me in and he said he kept calling me. And I said, yea I know. I was busy talking to my friends. I get in the house and quickly say hi to Matt and Kelly and tell him let's go upstairs.

As we sat in his room, I say we need to talk and he said that I read his mind. Then a few seconds of silence. Then he asked where do I see this relationship going? And I said, well I thought it was going to be for awhile, but I realized that we wouldn't work. He said that he thought he was ready for a relationship, but realized that he wasn't. I told him that I didn't really appreciate him wasting my time and how he treated me this whole week. He was acting really immature and was really rude towards me. He appologized for acting that way and for hurting me. And I accused him of still being in love with his ex girlfriend because he would always talk about her and he confirmed he still has feelings for her but they aren't the type where he would go back to his ex. I told him I realized we wouldn't be able to work because he doesn't know what he really wants in life. I need someone who knows what he wants to do with his life. Someone who I believe will be my future. And he agreed that this is his fault and that I didn't do anything wrong and I agreed I didn't do anything wrong. I told him he needs to get his shit together if he ever wants to be in another relationship. Then he said that asking him to pick me up was so unreasonable because I was so far away. And I told him that when we were dating, he was willing to pick me up. And he said he only did that to show that he really liked me. And then he said that just because we got together doesn't mean he liked me less and then he brought up the money issue. I told him I was willing to come over to his house and I too have bills to pay. I just felt like he was making too many excuses and while we were talking Jill beeped her horn and I immediately texted her almost done. I wrapped it up by grabbing my stuff and giving his stuff too. We hugged goodbye and he said that hopefully when I'm not too angry with him we can still be friends. I told him maybe. Right now, I still miss him at times and I'm still a little angry at him. I am kinda annoyed that he wanted me to come over so he can break up with me. That's fucked up for him to make me drive all the way to his house just to break up with me. But he did treat me well until this past week. Kelly tainted his memory with all the shit he does at home, but in my heart and in my mind, he was a good boyfriend. I just met him at the wrong time. But I'm not sure if I'll be friends with him later. I tend not to keep in touch with ex boyfriends.

3 Month Curse

Wow. What a difference a week can make. Looks like I am single once again. It seems like I can't seem to get past 3 months in a relationship. I blame it on Shawn since he is 2 for 2. The last two boyfriends seem to end within a week or two right after he meets them on his birthday. I will not bring a boyfriend to his birthday next year.

It seems like my relationship with Jason changed so drastically that everyone thought I was pulling an April fools on them when I confided in them my relationship was on the rocks. Mainly because just two weeks ago, we were really affectionate towards each other at Shawn's birthday.

Last Friday, we went out to dinner with a few friends of mine and then we watched a movie at his place after. I made a mistake of telling him that I was falling for him. I didn't mean that I am necessarily in love with him. I just felt like I'm developing stronger feelings for him than I had when we initially started dating. This triggered his unusual behavior towards me.

He was supposed to come over on Sunday since I didn't come over Saturday. When I texted him after work, he said he was at his friend's house moving stuff around and won't be done til later. He will come over after if it's not too late. He texted me at the end of the day saying he's done but since it's late, we'll catch a movie on Monday after work.

So Monday comes, and I text him good morning. He mentioned it's his friend's birthday dinner and asked if I want to come. I said sure and asked for the details which he said he'd give me later. We stopped talking since I was at work. I texted him after work asking for details but no reply. So I called him around 7 and then texted him because I know dinner is at 8 but I don't know where. He texted me a half an hour later the directions and said to be there by 8. I asked him if he could pick me up and he said he couldn't, and he said, "you don't have to go, I'm just letting you know about it." That text caught me off guard. It was so rude. I was waiting in the parking lot for 45 minutes because he was late and he was acting like a jerk to me throughout dinner. I said my goodbyes to everyone and to him and told him to call me tomorrow. He jokingly said no, but he didn't call me. Our only conversation on Tuesday was me initiating the good night text.

We didn't communicate for two days. Then Thursday comes and I texted him good morning. I needed to know if I'm sleeping at his house on Friday. So I asked if he still wants me to sleep over and he said sure. So I'm excited that everything is ok with him. He was just busy. Well I was wrong. Since this is a really long story, I'll "break up" the entries. No pun intended. ;)

Douche Alert

The plan was to all meet at Jae's party then go straight to Jason's house right after. We were going to have a good time at Jae's. Ann got there about 5 minutes before me. The moment I got to the party I search the room for Jae. I gave him a hug and at the corner of my eye a hand comes near me to get a high five. I reached up to give this mysterious hand a high five when I realized who's hand it was.

"What the heck are you doing here?"

"Of all the things, you ask what the fuck you doing here?"

I race towards Ann and ask if she had any idea that Sinn was coming. She didn't. I automatically tell Jill that Sinn is at the party and we won't be seeing her anymore. Now that Jill and Sinn aren't together anymore, I can clearly see what a douche bag he truely is. Ann, Veronica, and I felt so awkward at the party with him there that we left a half an hour later. The three of us decided to grab something to eat at Chinatown with our boyfriends. It's funny that all six of us drove our own cars. And it made me smile to see Jason getting alone with them. He and Jay especially were able to hold a conversation, even if it was about cars.