It's a No Go

So I decided to cancel my offer for the house. Jill told me the day I was going to sign the papers she couldn't be my roommate anymore. She talked to her mom and her mom begged her to stay at home. Her mom is going through empty nest syndrome and I don't blame her. But sometimes it's best to just let go. I know my parents were getting sad when I said I wanted to move out, but they were really supportive. I still could have moved out, but I didn't feel like living for my house. Living by myself meant I wouldn't be keeping my lifestyle. No more taking vacations whenever I want to. No more splurging on myself whenever I feel like it. I felt so bad too for having to cancel the offer because Amy had came in the office early to fill out my paperwork. She was so nice and patient with me that I felt so bad telling her 2 hours before meeting her I couldn't take the house. This house was perfect for me. It wasn't my first choice but my first choice was made for me with my future family. My first house with my family, I'll definitely have a casita. But this house, it was perfect for a single young woman. It was 1600 square feet, 3 bedrooms, 2 bathrooms and 1 den. It had upgraded flooring to tiles and had surround sound speakers built in. Oh well. It's a sign that I just still need to save up. I still need some traveling to do and meet the one. Maybe he'll buy me my first house. Just being hopeful.

Moving on Up

The past few days I've been looking at houses again. At first I was hesitant to look since the main reason I even considered buying a house was so I can move out and have Jason and I be together alone. But since we broke up on Friday, I thought maybe I could just live at home for awhile. But when I started looking, I realized that maybe it is time I move out. I'm almost 25 and I should learn to grow up now. Learn how to balance my expenses, cook, clean, and such. Hell, if it doesn't work out, I can always move back home and just rent out the place. But looking at houses did take my mind off of the loss of my relationship. When I get home though, I think about him and I'd still go on his facebook to see if he changed his status. As of right now, he still hasn't. Which I'm sure he won't for awhile since he's busy with his two jobs and trying to fit in working out. I don't know why I care so much. I'm sure he doesn't think about me. I bet he's relieved he got rid of me so he has more time to be with his friends and do nothing. I need someone who is emotional mature and is going to be with me for the long haul. For now, it is singlehood again. It sucks but I have no choice. Maybe I should take up on Jill's mom's offer of this cute accountant. But I hate getting set up, but you never know.

The Break Up

Thursday night, Angela and Jill both three wayed me and I knew instantly something was up. Apparently my suspicions were correct. Jason told Matt that he was going to break up with me this weekend and Kelly overheard him and told Angela who then told Jill and me. I was told that Jason doesn't want to be serious with me. Which got me confused because he was the one who chased me for 2 weeks and asked me to be his girlfriend right away. I was the one who asked him to slow down because I felt like we were moving too fast. And I was also told that the only reason why he asked me to be his girlfriend right away was so I wouldn't sleep with anyone else. How selfish and immature is that? He wasted my time and played with my emotions. He told me he was a relationship guy and doesn't like to date around. He should just stick to dating casually then. I was so angry and heartbroken when I heard this that after I got off the phone with them, I texted Kelly for more answers. And she told me that he is really selfish and immature and she hates him. She is glad that I won't be dating him anymore.

So Friday comes along, and the plan was to go clubbing at Jet and break it off with Jason right after. Jill and I rode together since I asked if I could spend the night at her house. I thought that I would be too devastated to drive all the way home by myself. So her whole goal was to get me good and drunk that night. But I decided that it would be best for me not to so I won't get too emotional. I had a good time hanging out with everyone. The only reason why I agreed to come out was because Tiff was in town from Hawaii. We decided to go to Ellis Island after clubbing to hang out for a bit and while I was there, Jason keeps texting and calling me. Asking how was the club and that he was going home already. As he texted me, I was asking Kelly what's going on at home. She was telling me when he got home and what he was doing. I decided to not answer him and let him wait. He left me hanging all week by not talking to me, so why talk to him right?

Around 2:30 am, we decided to just get it done with. Jill and Tiff dropped me off and waited outside. I told them I'll only take ten minutes. So I grab my bag with me so he thinks I don't know we're breaking up. I called him to let me in and he said he kept calling me. And I said, yea I know. I was busy talking to my friends. I get in the house and quickly say hi to Matt and Kelly and tell him let's go upstairs.

As we sat in his room, I say we need to talk and he said that I read his mind. Then a few seconds of silence. Then he asked where do I see this relationship going? And I said, well I thought it was going to be for awhile, but I realized that we wouldn't work. He said that he thought he was ready for a relationship, but realized that he wasn't. I told him that I didn't really appreciate him wasting my time and how he treated me this whole week. He was acting really immature and was really rude towards me. He appologized for acting that way and for hurting me. And I accused him of still being in love with his ex girlfriend because he would always talk about her and he confirmed he still has feelings for her but they aren't the type where he would go back to his ex. I told him I realized we wouldn't be able to work because he doesn't know what he really wants in life. I need someone who knows what he wants to do with his life. Someone who I believe will be my future. And he agreed that this is his fault and that I didn't do anything wrong and I agreed I didn't do anything wrong. I told him he needs to get his shit together if he ever wants to be in another relationship. Then he said that asking him to pick me up was so unreasonable because I was so far away. And I told him that when we were dating, he was willing to pick me up. And he said he only did that to show that he really liked me. And then he said that just because we got together doesn't mean he liked me less and then he brought up the money issue. I told him I was willing to come over to his house and I too have bills to pay. I just felt like he was making too many excuses and while we were talking Jill beeped her horn and I immediately texted her almost done. I wrapped it up by grabbing my stuff and giving his stuff too. We hugged goodbye and he said that hopefully when I'm not too angry with him we can still be friends. I told him maybe. Right now, I still miss him at times and I'm still a little angry at him. I am kinda annoyed that he wanted me to come over so he can break up with me. That's fucked up for him to make me drive all the way to his house just to break up with me. But he did treat me well until this past week. Kelly tainted his memory with all the shit he does at home, but in my heart and in my mind, he was a good boyfriend. I just met him at the wrong time. But I'm not sure if I'll be friends with him later. I tend not to keep in touch with ex boyfriends.

3 Month Curse

Wow. What a difference a week can make. Looks like I am single once again. It seems like I can't seem to get past 3 months in a relationship. I blame it on Shawn since he is 2 for 2. The last two boyfriends seem to end within a week or two right after he meets them on his birthday. I will not bring a boyfriend to his birthday next year.

It seems like my relationship with Jason changed so drastically that everyone thought I was pulling an April fools on them when I confided in them my relationship was on the rocks. Mainly because just two weeks ago, we were really affectionate towards each other at Shawn's birthday.

Last Friday, we went out to dinner with a few friends of mine and then we watched a movie at his place after. I made a mistake of telling him that I was falling for him. I didn't mean that I am necessarily in love with him. I just felt like I'm developing stronger feelings for him than I had when we initially started dating. This triggered his unusual behavior towards me.

He was supposed to come over on Sunday since I didn't come over Saturday. When I texted him after work, he said he was at his friend's house moving stuff around and won't be done til later. He will come over after if it's not too late. He texted me at the end of the day saying he's done but since it's late, we'll catch a movie on Monday after work.

So Monday comes, and I text him good morning. He mentioned it's his friend's birthday dinner and asked if I want to come. I said sure and asked for the details which he said he'd give me later. We stopped talking since I was at work. I texted him after work asking for details but no reply. So I called him around 7 and then texted him because I know dinner is at 8 but I don't know where. He texted me a half an hour later the directions and said to be there by 8. I asked him if he could pick me up and he said he couldn't, and he said, "you don't have to go, I'm just letting you know about it." That text caught me off guard. It was so rude. I was waiting in the parking lot for 45 minutes because he was late and he was acting like a jerk to me throughout dinner. I said my goodbyes to everyone and to him and told him to call me tomorrow. He jokingly said no, but he didn't call me. Our only conversation on Tuesday was me initiating the good night text.

We didn't communicate for two days. Then Thursday comes and I texted him good morning. I needed to know if I'm sleeping at his house on Friday. So I asked if he still wants me to sleep over and he said sure. So I'm excited that everything is ok with him. He was just busy. Well I was wrong. Since this is a really long story, I'll "break up" the entries. No pun intended. ;)

Douche Alert

The plan was to all meet at Jae's party then go straight to Jason's house right after. We were going to have a good time at Jae's. Ann got there about 5 minutes before me. The moment I got to the party I search the room for Jae. I gave him a hug and at the corner of my eye a hand comes near me to get a high five. I reached up to give this mysterious hand a high five when I realized who's hand it was.

"What the heck are you doing here?"

"Of all the things, you ask what the fuck you doing here?"

I race towards Ann and ask if she had any idea that Sinn was coming. She didn't. I automatically tell Jill that Sinn is at the party and we won't be seeing her anymore. Now that Jill and Sinn aren't together anymore, I can clearly see what a douche bag he truely is. Ann, Veronica, and I felt so awkward at the party with him there that we left a half an hour later. The three of us decided to grab something to eat at Chinatown with our boyfriends. It's funny that all six of us drove our own cars. And it made me smile to see Jason getting alone with them. He and Jay especially were able to hold a conversation, even if it was about cars.

On the Hunt

Last Friday, I took a personal day from work so I could just relax right after my doctor's appointment. Depending on the outcome of the results, I thought I wouldn't be up to going to work if the results were negative. Turns out, I didn't have a cyst in my ovaries after all! My mom knew I've been contemplating about buying a house so after my spa appointment, we went house hunting. And boy was it tiring! I did find a couple of potentials, but nothing grand where I was willing to make an offer right then and there. Some houses were great, but had some drawbacks. I want to find a house that's perfect. And I am willing to take as long as possible to find the perfect house because this is a huge investment. It always takes me forever to buy anything. It took me about 6 months to buy my first digital camera but when that broke, it only took me about 2 weeks to buy my second one because I wanted it before Halloween.

After the second day of house hunting, my aunt/realtor asked me if I liked any of the houses and would like to make an offer. I told her I'd think about it. It was moving way too fast for me. I was only on the second day of looking and my cousin/loan officer was having me bring documents and signing papers. I felt so overwhelmed. And when I get overwhelmed, I just shut down and loose interest. I do want to buy a house for investment purposes but it's also such a huge decision. I need to take into account how my family will be once I stop supporting them financially. Granted, I don't support them on a monthly basis, but when my parents are short on cash, I won't be there to help them out anymore once I'm on my own. It'll be nice to have a house by the end of the summer. So we'll see how this pans out.

No More Being MIA

I've been MIA from all the get togethers for awhile now. Mainly because I'd rather be with Jason than see people I've known for awhile now. That's what happens in a new relationship anyways. I told myself I wouldn't do that, but it happened so fast that I didn't realize I've been MIA until Eddie told me I was. This weekend, I decided to cancel my movie night with Jason on Friday to go to Lavo with the homies. I felt really sad that I had to tell him I wasn't coming over. And Jill told me to stop being a baby since I'll be seeing him on Saturday and Sunday anyways. The night started out around 10pm at the Palazzo's parking lot. Try finding your friends when you all have T-Mobile and no one has reception. Yea, it sucked. When we were finished playing hide and seek, we get into Lavo with it being open bar for all vodka drinks. By the time it was 1 am, some of us were ready to call it a night. You know you're old when you want to call it a night at 1 am. I wanted to go to Jason's but he was at a pool hall with his friends. He asked me to come over, but I was exhausted and was a little buzzed. I didn't want to think on how to get there. And he texted me when he got home and I think I was drunk because I don't remember texting him until I saw them the next morning. I shouldn't text when I'm drunk and sleeping. So instead of going all out, I should ease into getting back into the night life.

Period Inducing Panties

So this whole month, Jason and I have been walking on egg shells. We weren't sure if we made a mistake or not. We had a talk about what would happen if I was pregnant. He said he's not ready to be a father, and I'm not ready to be a mother. But if I did get pregnant, it'll be hard for me to actually get an abortion. So, I've been waiting for my period to start and when it didn't, I got really nervous. If I was pregnant, I know Jason will be really angry because he asked me to take the morning after pill and I refused. I was supposed to get my period yesterday and I got a little nervous when it didn't come since I'm usually regular and on time. The past 3 months, I saw a pattern when I got my period. It's usually when I'm wearing these pink and white stripped underwear from Victoria's Secret. So this morning, I figured, I might as well give it a try. So after showering, I put on the pink and white underwear, and pray that I get my period today. Right before my lunch, I noticed some spotting and I got really excited. I've never gotten really excited to get my period before. So that's 'Victoria's Secret' to their pink and white underwear, they induce periods. You haven't failed me yet.

Stranded

Last night, I spent the night at Jason's house. What was supposed to be a wonderful night, turned into an interesting night. We were going to celebrate that he finally got a job. And Jason had sold his car seats so he needed to send them to Utah via the Grayhound by 10pm. If you're from Vegas, you'll know that downtown is pretty ghetto and we only had an hour to get there. We made it just in time, which made us happy because we can get home early and hang out before bed.

We got into the car, turn the key, and nothing. A few pumps of the clutch, a turn of the key, and nothing. His car wont start! Oh no! We didn't have jumper cables and someone was getting arrested down the street. Great. At least if something happens to us, we don't have to wait for the cops. He made a few calls. While I call the 'ex hubby' Daniel. He kind of complained a bit, but eventually agreed to come give us a jump. Jason's friends were on their way so I called Daniel back and told him he doesn't have to come anymore. When Mike and Adam came to the rescue, we found out the battery was fine. It appeared the starter was not working and they had to pop the clutch in order for it to start up again. I hop into the other car with Stasia, and we watch the guys push the car. We follow them to a parking lot a few feet away, where the parking attendent was being a dick. He said if we didn't move the car, he's going to call the cops on us. Has he no compassion that we're broken down?? Nope! So Stasia and I drove around in Adam's car while the guys figure out what to do. Apparently, when we left, they were able to beat the green light and run the car across the street and Jason was able to get the car started. We said our goodbyes, and head home because we're exhausted. What was supposed to be a quick errand turned into a 2 hour adventure. We got to the gate and when he tried to enter the gate key, he left the car in gear and it stalled. Great! Good thing the roommates were home. They were able to pop the clutch again and we all walked home.

What an exhausting night! But the good news is Jason and I are getting better at sleeping together. I was able to sleep more this time around. He did wake up a few times, which woke me up. What was cute was when he woke up, he'd cuddle with me and give me a kiss. During this whole ordeal, Jason didn't once show how pissed off he was. He was a little annoyed, but he just laughed it off from time to time. That made me more attracted to him. While some guys would probably get really angry, he just took it in strides and went with the flow. He's such a great guy.

Clingy

Lately I've been showing signs of a clingy girlfriend and I hate it. I don't know what's wrong with me, but I've been wanting to be with Jason all the time. I tried avoiding this by not getting too close to him too fast, but when I like someone, I fall fast and hard. I hate that feeling because it usually ends with me getting hurt. And nobody wants to get hurt right? And I need to also stop acting like a brat when I don't get my way.
Last Tuesday, I asked him to come to the movies with me because I missed him a lot. He was going to be on my side of town anyways. And he said he couldn't, cuz since he missed lunch with his dad, he had to see his dad on Wednesday. But I kept bugging him and he said he'll try. Wednesday, he didn't say yes or no to me, so after work I called him and said don't even bother coming to the movies with me. My friend will just go with me instead. My friend is a guy. He sounded a little disappointed and I told him to call me after the gym since he was with his friend getting his car. He called me 20 minutes later after he got his car to tell me he misses me and was being all lovey dovey. It made me feel better that he admited he missed me but I also felt bad for going to the movies with another guy. The whole time I was in the movies, I kept thinking of him.
Last night I asked if he wanted to go to a lounge with me for my friend's birthday and he said no. I kept bugging him to come because my friends want to meet him. So today, I texted him saying I was sorry for trying to pressure him into going to the lounge with me especially since he got mad at his friend for doing the same thing when he's tight on money. He said he's not mad but I think he was a little annoyed that I keep trying to get him to do stuff when he's really broke. But then he invited me to his friend's birthday party which I felt like I invited myself to. But he reassured me he wants me to come. I need to start going out with friends so I won't suffocate Jason. Cuz I feel like I am and I really am not like this. lol.

Stressed!

Why is it that when your boss is in the office, everything runs smoothly, and the first day he goes on vacation, EVERYTHING goes wrong? Sucks being the engineer, because everyone turns to you thinking you know everything. My game is 3 days late and I am STRESSED! And when I'm stressed out, I cannot eat or sleep and I become emotional. I was talking to a friend of mine through gmail and I started tearing up. Good thing he couldn't see me falling apart. I did some yoga yesterday and it helped relieve the stress I've been feeling. And it sucks that when I stress over one thing, I start to reevaluate other things not working in my life and stress over that too. I started contemplating about my relationship with Jason and that got me stressed. Him not having a job is worrying me which it shouldn't, but I care about him and I worry about him making it through the month. I felt relieved when my boss emailed me this morning saying that it's okay to release the game as is and we'll figure out how to fix it on the next pass. I feel bad emailing him during his much needed vacation but this game is really important. It's the first of its kind and everyone is waiting for it. Lots of burden on my shoulders huh? I need a drink. So much for giving up alcohol for Lent. Although I haven't really drank that much since Jason and I started dating. So for now, I'm not giving up anything for Lent.

It's in the Cards

So Valentine's day has come and gone. Jason and I just ended up having dinner and then walked around at Bellagio to take some pictures. Deep down inside, I wish he made a big deal out of Valentine's day but I'm also glad he didn't because he just can't afford anything right now. The current condition of the economy is greatly affecting him. He is down to working just 4 hours a week! I'm trying to be an understanding girlfriend by trying not to get him to spend money when we are together. After taking pictures on the strip, we end up at his house to exchange gifts. I told him to open his card first and he took one look at the envelope and said we gave each other the same card. I didn't think so at first cuz there are many "RED" envelopes at Hallmark. But when he opened it, he said we did give each other the same card. What are the odds? Guess we both think alike. I got him a book that he's been wanting for awhile and he absolutely loved it. Just seeing his face light up made my night. It was an eventful evening and I'm glad I was able to celebrate it with Jason.

No Need to Wish Anymore

So I couldn't wait til Valentine's Day to seal the deal with Jason. Since he and I have been dating, a lot of my friends have been asking when we're going to sleep together and I've been putting it off mainly because I don't want him to think I'm too easy. On Friday, after hanging out with the girls, I went to Jason's house with the purpose of just sleeping over. By the time I got to his house, I was irritated with him because he gave me wrong directions so I just wanted to go to sleep since it was late already. By the time we were in bed, all my irritation towards him went away. Jason and I ended up fooling around for a couple of hours before sleeping. Well he went to bed and I just laid there because I always have a hard time sleeping when I'm not in my own bed. Jason was able to sleep for an hour and he wanted to fool around again. That's when I finally gave in to his request. We did the deed really quick. He didn't mean for it to be that fast, but I guess fooling around for hours on end made him too excited. Exhaustion kicked in but I couldn't sleep. He had work the next day so I told him I should leave. He didn't want me to, but I insisted because I wanted to sleep and I couldn't sleep in his house. On the way home, I saw the most amazing thing. I saw a shooting star for the very first time. It made me wonder if it's a sign that maybe things are looking up for me. Maybe I did make the right choice with Jason. All I know is that I'm really happy and that's all that matters. The shooting star just made it more special and I didn't even have to wish for it.

Bay Area Adventures Part 2

Our first night we decided to do what we do best. Party! While getting ready, Julia confessed she's never thrown up from drinking before, which shocked us. So Aprille and I decided to make that our goal. To get her wasted. To kill time, instead of realizing we didn't eat dinner yet, we started taking shots of soju in Chris' apartment which tasted like water. After a couple of shots, off we went to the club. Their drinks were cheap and strong! After one cocktail, Julia said she was feeling buzzed and Aprille and I were shocked cuz we weren't feeling anything. We decided to go to the bar so Julia could order some food while we ordered more shots. My friend Naz decided to join us which was an awkward situation. See, Chris and I used to flirt all the time online and I flirted with Naz when I met him through Aprille's boytoy. So we kept buying Julia shots but she kept refusing them, so Aprille and I had to drink them. A few drinks later, we were all dancing and I didn't know who to dance with. Next thing I knew, we're leaving the club and Aprille and I were play fighting in the streets while Julia and Chris were waiting for us near the car. Aprille and I pass out on top of each other in the back seat of the car and next thing I knew is that we're at Chris's apartment. The rest of the night was a blur because I was a bit drunk but we were all able to get ready for bed in a breeze. I remember Aprille and Julia yelling at Chris to not go in the living room cuz they'll just change there. Then the three of us crash on the futon.

The next morning we were all hungry and had a little headache. Good idea drinking the night before we're going snowboarding huh? Chris' friend Vince drove us to Lake Tahoe and thank goodness because it was raining and snowing and the visibility was pretty much none. The girls signed up for lessons while the guys did their own thing. It was a two our lesson where we didn't really learn anything. It was fun watching Julia go down the snow and going the opposite direction the instructor tells her to go. Then at the top of the mountain, when the instructor was trying to let go of her hands, she reached back trying to grab her hands again. We all fell a lot, but I fell the hardest by falling on my back and then hitting my head. I still have a headache. Snowboarding was pretty fun and we want to go and do it again. Maybe somewhere closer though.

Bay Area Adventures Part 1

On Thursday Shawn came over and got me all worried about my flight for San Francisco on Friday. The plan was this. I was to bring Aprille's luggage to the airport where she will meet me when she lands in Vegas at 9 am from Hawaii. We check in and go to our gate for our 10:45am flight. He kept telling me she wouldn't make it so I called her to verify that she wasn't landing in the international gate. She tried to reassure me that it'll be fine and she'll make it just as long as her flight doesn't get delayed.

Fast forward to Friday morning at 7am. Aprille calls me and said she is in Utah and her flight is delayed. The airlines told her they'll leave at 8:15 am Utah time (an hour ahead), so she told me she'll still be able to make it.

8:30am rolls around and she said she's still delayed and to check in her bag under me and she'll just pay me back.

9:00am, Aprille calls me and says that she doesn't know when she'll be leaving Utah. They keep delaying their flight because they can't find what's wrong with the plane. And I tell her that I just checked in and our flight is delayed as well. She tells me good! And to try to delay our flight. My response? How the hell do I do that?!

9:15am, Aprille calls and says their plane is leaving and she'll be in Vegas soon. And she'll be able to check in at the gate since she is already in the terminal. Her gate is actually about 5 gates down from us.

Julia and I were trying to patiently wait to see how long our 10:45am flight will be delayed. All we kept thinking of was Aprille and if she'll make it.

11:00am, Aprille calls me and says she just landed in Vegas and wants to know the status of our flight. I told her we're still waiting to see when we'll board, but to hurry up. We see her 10 minutes later and chat for about 5 minutes and we hear on the intercom that we can now board our plane.

How lucky can Aprille have gotten?! It was such a close call but in the end, we were all together and that's the only think that mattered because if she had missed her flight, Julia and I would be stuck at the airport waiting for her to come from the next flight.

Monica and Chandler Syndrome

It's always great when two friends who've known each other for awhile realize that they should become more than just friends. The only problem with that is their whole relationship is put in the spotlight for all their friends to witness. And sometimes their friends are placed in the middle of their relationship. Last week, my friend Daniel called me to see what I was doing. And we planned to meet up at Boulder Station for a drawing they were having. He told me he was having dinner with our friend Anna first then they'll meet up with us. A red flag started waving when he told me he was having dinner, just the two of them. I never knew that Daniel and Anna were good friends and hung out just the two of them. Then yesterday, on Facebook, Anna changed her status to 'in a relationship'. Now that was the biggest red flag. My friend Rambo IMed me on gtalk asking to have lunch and I immediately said yes so I can get some juicy gossip. He confirmed that they are together, and believes that they'll be good for each other. Then we talked about how we hope this will work out because then our friendships will never be the same since everyone is really good friends with each other. Then I got a little mad that Daniel never told me he was seeing Anna. Daniel and I have a unique relationship. We've called each other baby mama and baby daddy. We've had some type of connection and always told each other everything. So I was a bit hurt that I had to figure out on my own that he was in a relationship already. So when he texted me about shopping today, I asked him if he had something to tell me. He was acting stupid like he didn't know what I was talking about. When he called me, he finally told me that yes, he and Anna are together. So we talked about how it happened, and I told him I'm happy for him because I truely am happy. He's been wanting a girlfriend for awhile now and I think Anna will make him happy. Then he told me his concerns with dating Anna. How since they are both close with the same people, there will be no secrets with their friends about their relationship. And I told him that happens when friends date each other. But in the end, it's worth it because you are both happy. And I can tell he is finally happy. So now he can't say I'm cheating on him anymore, cuz he's cheating on me too.

Girl Problems

Let me just warn you, if you're a male, you might feel uncomfortable about the subject. The title says it all...girl problems. Anyways, back to the story. Since the month started, I've been counting the days, and I knew I'd have my monthly visit sometime soon. I'm usually a couple of days late from my cycle these past few months so I didn't think I'd get it today. Low and behold, I got my period a few minutes before I had to leave for the dentist. What's worst was I was wearing khakis and it seeped through my pants. I had an hour to get to the dentist. So I had to think quick on my feet. I called my mom to see if she could meet me at the dentist and bring me a pair of jeans. She didn't know which pair of jeans to bring me, so I just told her to bring me any pair. I don't care. Just as long as I can change into something without any obvious signs I'm on my period. She gave the phone to my dad to give him directions and he asked me why I needed jeans for the dentist. My response? "Don't worry about it! Can you please just take mom to the dentist with the jeans?" With five minutes to spare, my dad came alone to drop the bag of jeans. I get back into my car to change but when I look at the jeans my mom brought, my jaw dropped. She picked the two smallest pairs of jeans I own! I usually wear these jeans when I go out partying because they are really fitted. I have no idea what my mom was thinking giving me my size 0 and 1 jeans when I'm on my period. So I was in the driver's seat trying to squeeze into my jeans and thank God I was able to get into them. This was by far the worst day I've had this year, and it only began. $200 for the 3 fillings, $20 bucks worth of gas, and hoping my khakis aren't ruined are all in a days work.

Meet the Friends

I'm so nervous for Jason. Friday is the day he will meet all my friends. He's met a couple of the important ones already but now he's going to meet everyone at the same time. My friend Shawn has an obsession with an old guy I used to date, so now every guy I date he compares them to the old guy. I told Shawn he is hard to impress. Every guy I bring has to make a good impression on him. Forget trying to impress my dad, they have to impress Shawn to be good enough for me. So I hope they all get along because I can see Jason and I will be together for a little while. Well at least longer than Eric. I hop.

Joint Custody

My weekends have always been pretty hectic. I'm always booked way before the weekend even starts. And this was when I was single. Add in a boyfriend and now I have to try to and squeeze in as much time with different people in so little time because everyone knows I never go out during the week. For the 4 days I'm off for New Years, I already had a schedule of who I was going to hang out with ahead of time. Then Aprille texts me New Years day which was Thursday and her day.

Ape: Hey, can we just hang out on Friday night instead of tonight? These [Guam] people are being party poopers.
me: I can't hang out Friday, I'm seeing Jason.
Ape: Can you see him tonight instead and see me Friday?
me: Let me ask if he is cool with switching days with you.

[Goes and asks Jason if he's ok with switching days with Aprille]

me: Ape, so Jason is ok with it. He has custody of me tonight, and you have custody of me Friday and Saturday.

I'm glad Jason is so understanding. I told him that I don't want to disappear on my friends just because I have a boyfriend like I did in the past. To prevent me from disappearing, I've given Jason my rest days [Fridays] so I can hang out with him since Saturdays is when I see my friends. Sundays will always be for my family.

Starting the Year with a Scare

This new years was the first time I didn't spend the count down with my family. I was with Jason for the count down, but prior to the count down I got a phone call from my mom. She was frantically asking me where I was at. She was at Boulder Station casino gambling for our traditional money throw for the kids. When all of a sudden people started running and yelling "bomb!" A guy claimed that he was wearing a bomb vest and was threatening to detonate it. My mom quickly went outside and was trying to find all the kids. My aunt had left my little cousins at Kids Quest which is a babysitting center in the casino. Since they weren't prepared for situations like this, they had all the kids outside without any shoes and jackets. With everyone running around her, my mom was trying to stay calm and get the kids so they can leave. It's a good thing the man didn't have a bomb on him and I hope he gets maximum punishment.